Adommy Fanfic: A safe in my heart, Chapter 12/12
A safe in my heart, Chapter 12
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Words: about 4000
Disclaimer: it's just my imagination, I don't own the guys, even if I really would like to ;-) But I own the story
Summary: Adam doesn't see the love in front of him. But when he gets the hint, he wants to run away. Will Tommy let him get away? Adommy
After the door closed, we were standing there, facing each other. It seemed like the world just stopped around us. It was timeless. My eyes were dancing across his face.
You are so beautiful!
I couldn’t speak for a while, he was also quiet. I felt so close to him, even without touching. I wanted so badly to touch him, to kiss him. But I thought we should first talk about us. And I was not sure if I could control myself as soon as I would touch him.
“Tommy, I have so much to tell you.” My voice was quiet. He smiled at me, his eyes sparkling. “Adam, I want to hear everything you have to say. But, don’t get me wrong, I would like to refresh myself. I fell asleep in front of the TV and I just don’t feel comfortable enough for this. Is this ok?” he asked me. In this moment for the first time in that night I realized that it was late. “Oh God, Tommy, I’m sorry, I didn’t thought about how late it is. I just wanted to see you. Do you want me to come back tomorrow?” I felt a little guilty for waking him up. He looked at me and answered with faken anger in his voice: “Don’t you dare to walk away now. I have been waiting far too long, don’t you think? Just wait here, take whatever you want to drink and please stay. I will be right back.” He looked at me a little anxious. “Will you stay?” I just nodded.
There is no place in this world I would rather be right now.
He rushed towards his bathroom. I could hear the shower. A shiver ran down my spine as images of him naked right now under the shower started to spin around in my head. I had to force myself to stay away from the bathroom. I shook my head to get the view of a naked and wet Tommy out of my head. I took my jacket off and headed to the kitchen. I took a small bottle of water out of his fridge and took a sip. Then I was just sitting on his couch and waiting for him to come out of the bathroom. As the shower ran out, my heart skipped.
He will be here in a few moments.
I was still nervous. I just wasn’t used to those things. I mean telling someone you love them is always hard, even if that someone is your best friend. Maybe than it is even harder. I tried to use the last moments on my own to gather my thoughts and to fix what I wanted to say. Then he came out of the bathroom. And nothing I have seen in my entire life could have prepared me for the feeling that came over me as I watched him walking over to me. I was almost frozen at his sight.
I always thought that he was beautiful. But you can’t imagine how beautiful he was in this moment. He was wearing a black T-shirt and black shorts, no shoes. There were waterdrops all over his tattoos. It seemed like they were glowing on his body. His face was pure, without makeup, just Tommy. His eyes a dark and warm brown. His blond hair a little wet. And did I mention his lips? They looked like a sweet sin. He was just gorgeous. I felt butterflies flutter in my stomach.
“Tommy ...” I wasn’t even able to say more. My mouth was dry, I took a sip of water. Just to do something. “Tommy, you are sooo.... I can’t take my eyes off of you.” This was all I managend to say. He smiled, blushing slightly. I didn’t even know when I got up, but as I regained consciousness I was standing in front of him. My eyes kept wandering over his face, trying to learn every little piece by heart.
After a while I reached out my hand and began to touch his face. I let my fingertips wander slightly across his forehead, I traced his eyebrows and let my finger stroke over his beautiful nose and then over his closed eyes. Then I was touching his cheekbones and ran my fingertips to his chin. From here I needed just a few fingersteps to his lips. It was like painting a beautiful picture. I enjoyed touching his lips softly, feeling every curve of them. Then I cupped his face with my hands, stroking his cheeks with my thumbs.
The whole time he was just standing in front of me. As soon as I put my fingertips on his face, he closed his eyes. He was quiet, only his unsteady breathing showed me that he was enjoying what I was doing. Once again my eyes wandered over his face, devouring it, loving it. Then my lips followed the invisible tracks of my fingertips. I left feathery kisses all over his face. Then I stopped to look at him. “Tommy, please open your eyes.” It was just a whisper. He opend his eyes slowly. He looked at me like he was coming back from a dream. His eyes dark and full of love. I wanted to bathe in those eyes forever. “Tommy, I love you.” My confession hit him like a shot. I felt him shiver against my hands. His eyes were sparkling with uncried tears. I just couldn’t hold back anymore. His face still in my hands, I pulled his lips to mine. I let my lips slightly carress his lips. He wrapped his arms around my neck, pulling me closer to his body. Our lips were melting together, soft and slow. A shiver started to crawl over my body.
Then I pulled away from the kiss, looking deep in his eyes. He looked back at me in confusion. “What’s wrong?” his voice raspy. “Nothing, everything is just right.” I pulled him in a tight hug carressing his back. “I am just happy.” I smiled into his ear. I could feel him melting into my embrace. Then he started to push my backwards to his couch. I followed his lead. Finally he pushed me down. When I was sitting, he climbed on my lap, his arms around my neck. His eyes were locked with mine. “I need to know what brought you back to me. And do you really want to stay?” His voice sounded insecure. “I am really happy that you are back, but I ... I just need to know...”. I smiled and took his hand from my neck to kiss every fingertip. He watched my lips and swallowed hard. Then he sighed: “Adam, please don’t tease me. Just tell me.” He really needed to hear it.
“Sorry I couldn’t resist, you are just too sweet. But I know you deserve that I am honest and open with you.” I was holding his hand and laid it on my chest. “ I must admit, first I realized that you love me, I was really out of my mind. I wanted to get away from you, as far as I could. I didn’t want to think about my own feelings for you. I just wanted to lock them out.” I sighed. “ The worst thing about your confession was that for you it was something ordinary while I almost drove myself insane. I just couldn’t understand, how you felt.” I paused to take a deep breath.
“I was also ashamed that I couldn’t just be honest with you. You were so caring and so sweet and I wanted to hide.” Suddenly there were tears in my eyes. Tommy looked at me and as a single tear dropped out of my eye, he kissed it away leaving a fire mark on my cheek. I had to swallow. “Sorry! Please go on.” His voice was like an embrace to me.
I cleared my throat and wiped one more tear away from my eye. “The last time I was here, I had the plan to meet you, to stop whatever was going on between us. But then I saw you and all the emotions in your eyes and I really lost my selfcontrol. And then you told me all those nice things but I still didn’t get it. I still didn’t want to get it. That was why I had to go, leaving you broken behind me.” I looked into his eyes. “Tommy I am really sorry for hurting you. I was just stupid and childish.” I stroked over his cheek. I paused once again to gather myself. I saw that he was fighting against an urge to take me in his arms. But he also wanted me to continue.
“Then I talked to Monte. He really opened my eyes.” I took both his hands in my hands. “he made me realize.” I paused once again. It was quite too long for him. “WHAT did you realize” he asked inpatient. “I fell for you. I am so madly in love with you, I can’t think of anything else. After I admitted it to myself I just wanted you to know that I want to be with you. I didn’t want to waste any second more. That’s why I came to you, in the mid of the night. Just couldn’t wait.” I smiled shyly.
“Are you sure? I mean you are not afraid anymore?” I looked down with a small sigh.“Tommy, I want to be honest. I am still a little scared. But I am more afraid to let the chance to have something amazing with you pass up. I want you. Can you help me to deal with my fears?” I looked straight in his eyes and saw him crying. “Tommy, baby, don’t cry!” It broke my heart to see him like that.
“No, no, it’s ok, I’m fine.” He sniffed. “I am just happy and relieved. The last days were hard for me too. I was sure you would come back to me, but I was not sure how long I could take it. I missed you so much. But now...” he reached out his hand and touched my cheek. “Now everything is just fine.” I cupped his face in my hands, pulling him closer to me. Our faces were just a few inches apart. He looked in my eyes. “I love you so much!” With this he closed the distance between our lips and pulled me in a longing kiss.
His lips on my lips were everything I could think about right now. I moaned and he let his tongue gently caress my lips. With a soft force his tongue pushed my lips apart and wandered in my mouth to meet mine. I pulled him closer, digging my fingers in his neck. He moaned in my mouth and I felt the vibration deep in me. My hands pulled on his hair, my body was trying to get him closer and closer. Our tongues were playing around and I was about to explode, the emotions overhelming me.
Finally he pulled a little away, trying to catch a breath. Our foreheads met as he smiled at me, biting on his bottom lip. His eyes were dark. Then he got up and pulled me up with him. “Time to go to bed, it’s late” He smirked at me, pulling me towards his bedroom. I was grinning like an idiot, knowing that we wouldn’t get any sleep in the next hours.
As we came in his bedroom Tommy turned to face me, he pulled my face down and kissed me with an opened mouth. He sucked softly on my bottom lip, then his tongue slipped in my mouth again. I couldn’t neither think nor breathe. It was like he was touching my soul with this kiss. My hands started to wander over his body. I decided that he had too much clothes on. My hands were wandering over his back to the hem of his t-shirt. As I slid my hands under his t-shirt to touch the skin on his back, he drew a deep breath, biting on my bottom lip. I smiled.
My hands stroked over his bare back and I was tracing his spine. He shivered under my touch and I felt goosebumps forming on his skin. I pulled his t-shirt over his head causing his lips to leave mine. He whined at the lost, but I used my chance to get my lips on his neck. His head fell back as I let my tongue circle on his pulse. My hands were back on his spine, wandering up and down. He was melting in the touch. As I let my mouth wander over his chest I could feel his heart beating hard. My hands were now on his stomach and kept wandering towards my lips on his chest. Then I pulled my lips away and watched him. “Baby, you are so beautiful!” He smiled and I kissed him tenderly, letting my tongue explore his mouth. He pulled his hands around my waist and started to remove my shirt.
I had to gasp for breath as soon as my t-shirt was gone. That wouldn’t be the first time I would feel his skin on mine but this time it was different. He let his eyes slide down my chest and back to my eyes. Then he stepped closer to me and pulled me in an embrace. As soon as I felt his skin on mine I was burning. The feeling was so strong, I couldn’t barely stand upright. He looked deep in my eyes, I was trambling on the emotions I could see there. “I can hardly believe that you are mine!” There was a happy smile in his voice and he pulled me closer to kiss me like there would be no tomorrow.
I don’t even know how we managed it, but after a little while, we were standing there almost naked. Our pants, my shoes and my socks were gone, thrown somewhere on the floor. Only in briefs we were standing here, kissing and touching. Then I could feel that he was leading us towards his bed. After a few steps we just fell down on his bed, laying side by side. We were looking deep in the others eyes. I felt for the first time since days just happy. This moment was so perfect, that I couldn’t understand why I was ever afraid of having this with Tommy.
Tommy eyes were dancing across my chest and my arms. He smiled and said: “I love your freckles. I would like to count them all.” I smirked back “ Baby, it would take you forever to do this”. Tommy pulled me closer in his arms. “I want to use my lifetime to count your freckles, over and over again.” With this he kissed me once again passionatly, making me shiver. Then his fingers started to run from one freckle to another. His lips followed his fingers. I was about to go crazy.
“Tommy, I want to feel you all, without any clothes between us.” He looked in my eyes. “I just want to feel YOU on me.” He smiled and then smirked at me. “So, what do you think, who will be faster naked?” He didn’t give me a real chance to win, because he pulled his briefs out while his was speaking to me. “Hey, you are a little cheater!” I was laughing. But he was also fast and he pulled my briefs out within a second. I was speachless. “Wow! You are really quick.” He pushed me down in the sheets and then layed himself right on top of me.
Oh, my God!!!
I know we had some hot makingout session for weeks and I have seen him naked and I knew every part of his body. But the feeling now was so intense. For the first time it was not about getting satisfaction of physical needs. It was about feeling love. This was so deep, we both were trembling. He looked at me and then his lips traced over my face. Our bodies moved slowly together. It shook me to the core to feel him making love to me. It was like a promise, like a silent whisper. There was no urgency in our movements, everything was gentle and soft. Every inch of my body was about to pet his body. I couldn’t imagine that we could ever feel closer as we did in this moment. I could feel every piece of his body, every bruise, every bone, everything.
Tommy was aware of the magic of this moment just as much as I was. He kissed me over and over again. His lips soft, his tongue carrassing and gentle, his hands gently stronking over my body, my face, my arms... There was not a slightest hurry in his touches. It was like an unspoken agreement between us. I was just as gentle and slowly as he was. My fingertips danced over his back like whispers. His skin was so soft and it almost hurt to feel him so close to me. His touches released my soul from the armor I put around it. And with every touch and every kiss he was about to conquer the last piece of my heart. I loved every second of it. I was gladly opening my gates, letting him in. It was like it was always meant to be.
He broke the kisses just to look in my eyes. I used the moment to turn us around to lay him on his back. My hands ran over his chest while I was laying on his side. He closed his eyes as my lips started to wander over his chest, kissing every inch of it. He moaned heavily as my tongue circled around his nipples. His back arched against my touch, his fingers pulled on my hair. I smiled into his skin. I pulled my hands under his butt to get him closer, while my tongue continued to tickle his nipple. He moaned: “Adam, you are killing me!”. I looked up at him and saw the desire in his eyes.
Gotcha!
I kept wandering with my lips and my tongue over his body. He was trambling as I kissed around his bellybutton, blowing hot air on his stomach. My hands were still under his butt and I pulled him closer to me, my head now on his hipbone. For a moment I was just laying here and heard his breath while I was looking over his body. He became impatient and got up on his elbows, looking down to me. “What are you doing?” his voice was throaty. “I am discovering you. I want to know every little piece of you and I want to kiss and touch every inch of you. I am making love to you, with my eyes, my mouth, my hands.” He moaned as one of my hands moved away from his butt just to run over his hipbone, while my mouth was kissing the one my head was laying on. His head felt back, his body still on his elbows. I could hear him holding back his breath as my hand started wandering from his hipbone further along his body. I took my time, knowing I was about to drive him crazy.
My lips followed my hand. I stopped then as my hand was about to touch his cock, my lips as well almost on it. I looked up to see his face. He opend his eyes, looking down to me. His eyes were hazy. I opened my mouth and let my tongue slowly wander over his cock. He closed his eyes, moaned loudly and let his body fall on his back. I could feel him shiver as I continued to lick over his cock. I moved my tongue slowly, softly touching him. My hands were now on his hipbones, pushing his body down into the sheets. He moaned my name, his hands on my hair, his body writhing under me. It was pure pleasure for me to see how he was reacting on me. I was really enjoying the torture I was doing to him.
With a smooth motion I took his cock in my mouth and his back arched. “Oh, God, Adam!” His moan let his body vibrate under me. My own cock responded on his arousal. I let my teeth wander over his length and sucked on it. I liked the way he could let go and was enjoyning himself. There was suddenly an urge to kiss him and I let his cock slip out of my mouth and crawled up to his face. He opened his eyes and pulled my lips in a kiss. This kiss was pure fire, I could feel small explosions all over my body. I layed down on top of his body, our coks rubbing against each other. His cock was wet and it felt so good against my own. I wrapped my arms around his head and we kissed while our cocks were dancing on fire together. Then I pulled him to sit up in my lap. Tommy wrapped his legs around me, his hands on my back, digging in my skin. I kissed him passionatly and let my tongue meet his tongue over and over again. We moved faster, our breaths unsteady. Then I let my hand wander between our bodys, right where our cocks were embracing each other. I put my hand around them and began to stroke. It was amazing to feel his cock on mine. His hand joined my hand and we moved together faster and faster. “Tommy, I love you!” I managed to say before my body took me away on a wave of joy. Then he cried out my name and I could feel that he was about to get off with me. It was more than ecstasy, it was like coming home after a long and tiring journey. It just felt right.
As we came back we were both panting against our faces. I looked in his eyes and stroked his bangs out of his face. Then he fell back and I leaned forward and kissed him with all the love I felt for him. He was holding me in an embrace, his heartbeat melted with mine. Then I pulled away to get some tissues to clean our bodies. He smiled while I wiped over his stomach. After I finished I kissed over his stomach and his chest to his lips. I cupped his face and looked at him. “I can’t believe that I was so afraid to give us a try. I love you so much.” I kissed over his face. “I love you too. And I think I know the answer.” “Answer to what question?” “I asked if you wanted to stay.” I laughed at him: “Tommy, I will stay with you as long as you want me to!” We kissed once again.
Then he said smiling against my lips: “I have something for you. I bought it some time ago, hoping we could need it soon.” He got up and walked out of his bedroom. I was waiting for him to come back. Then he was back and jumped on the bed. His hands were behind his back. ‘”Close your eyes!” I obeyed. “So, now take a look.” As I opend my eyes I started to laugh. “Now, you can be sure I will never ever leave your side!” “That was the plan”, he said as he gave me a spoon full with mint-chocolate ice cream. I moaned and leaned back to sit on the head end of his bed. He sat next to me and smiled while he was feeding himselm and me with ice cream.
I woke up next day and the first thing I saw was Tommys head on my chest. His breath was tickling me. I had to smile and pulled him closer to me. He moaned in his sleep. And as I was laying here in his arms, skin on skin, I realized it.
Everything changed for us, but it was still us, it was still me and it was still Tommy. And he was now mine!!