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[glitteryersoul]

I used to think you were nice. Despite all the times you would tell me I dont like you because Paul doesnt like you. Or because you wore the same shirt as me. Or because I think you are shallow. Or because I thought we had a connection and I realized I just didnt like you anymore. You know when I just absolutely stopped caring: Oh I didnt tell you

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y'know how i'm usually snide, well take this at face value. pt.1

[thatorientalboy]

I used to think you were nice.
i'm not nice. i'm a foul person.
Despite all the times you would tell me I dont like you because Paul doesnt like you.
the last time i ever said this to you, paul, for better or worst, represented a known quantity to me. i didn't know then, and for the most part, i don't know now what to make of you. the things you choose to do confound me. whenever it is the case that someone has that effect on me, i go to others to get a consensus, then i draw my own conclusions. did i tell you what paul told me? he said that he doesn't get your sense of humor. he thought that you weren't funny. it was the case then for me, that between dealing w/ the ebony shit & my chris issues that i was worn thin. it was wrong of me to take paul's opinion of you as my own without more to go on. when you came back from being sick, i tried to reach out to you, to get a better sense of you. my own opinion of you. just when i thought i had you nailed. the situation changed. i probably never had you figured out.Or because you wore the

y'know how i'm usually snide, well take this at face value. pt.2

[thatorientalboy]

You act like you are so much better than me, and that's fine maybe you are.
nothing personal, but i try to act like i'm better than everyone. i know what the score is. if i don't believe in my head that on some level i'm better or at least equal to everyone else, i'd get so depressed i wouldn't be able to function.
But I dont call you out on every fucking thing as you seem to think is so aptly appropriate for me.
i honestly have no idea what you're talking about here.So sorry I was sick. Sorry I got food poisoning and didnt "appear" sick the next day. If the show was so important to you, you could have requested the day. Or you could have switched. Or you could have been a mature person and said hey andrea, there is this show and I reallly want to go, is there anyway you can stick it out? Rather than just having a fit behind the counter. Because even though I was throwing up, I would have stayed. Because that's who I am, and you know at least that much about me

Re: y'know how i'm usually snide, well take this at face value. pt.2

[glitteryersoul]

I think it'd be better if we actually talked about this in person. I have plenty to say, but I dont want the details of chris and I nor my opinions of you and this situation drawn out any more than they have to be over the internet.

you know the number