i really need to start getting more sleep...really. like yesterday i was so tired i serisously couldnt show emotion, it was weird like it wasnt like i was sad, but i just couldnt smile/laugh and then i forced so people wouldnt think i was depressed or something and that was weird. ok im weird. thank god for sol's bc now i have a tiny bit more sleep ( Read more... )

so....i havent really studied as much as i wanted to study for ap euro. i feel ready tho, which is weird, i dont think i have ever felt ready for a test like this before. im glad my teacher is awesome, even tho she is pycho w/ hw/cw. i wanna take another practice test, but i guess i should sleep. i havent filled out that govenors board app. i need ( Read more... )

Today was really fun ( Read more... )

i dont think i have ever been so happy for any production to end than i was for grease. now, yes it did have its high points, but overall the more i came in the more i got pissed at people...yeah chorus kids... but its over! done with! my sat. will be free! no more bitches! i wont be up as late...hahaha so i think. i feel so, so relieved! and to ( Read more... )

i am SO sick of grease. thats the end of that. i really hate superficial people, this isnt for anyone impartictular, i have just come to the realization that most people r so not sincer and so superficial, its sickening. i need to stop being so moody and stubburn, its pms i think teehee but yeah. i got a camp friendship email and cried, i am really ( Read more... )

Grease went better tonight, more energy and such wahoo. Lights....wtf is eric even allowed to touch them? and the w is why not what. I was so hyper, I had a mocha Frap w/ a shot of espresso, damn I should do that more often or even have 2...oh wozza. I messed up soooo much. I almost fell of the TOP stair in We Go Together and in Hand Jive my heel ( Read more... )

thank god. it went ok...hahaha it was awful whateva. im so tired and im not doing my hw, uuuuuugh. i really need to stop reading other peoples ljs, they make me sad. whenever someone writes about being sad then i feel sad for them and whenever someone writes about being happy im sad that i dont get to be doing whatever is making them happy with ( Read more... )

so i totally wanted to give blood tomorrow just bc thats cool to me or something but, oh no i cant bc why? why? fucking grease, ill be "too tired" and risking the possibility of passing out, i should get it done just bc of that, then i wouldnt have to be in the damn show. friday is the mcs and soty concert and i was totally gonna skip grease for a ( Read more... )

so today my mom and i were talking about the newest crisis taking place at my home here is a snidbit that amuses me b/c its oh so true ( Read more... )

so yeah. procrastination is oh so grand. i am so over school. glad its friday. i skipped grease dress reharsal today to go to ventures, bc i had already made an "assertive" email about not showing and i didnt want to be a hypocrite about. i hope no one noticed. isnt that funny? im always sad when i realize that i am not that noticable and am always ( Read more... )