so yesterday i went to work. during the first three hours of my being there i got the worst headache of my life, complete with nausea, dizziness, watering eyes, neck pain, weird swirling lights, disorientation, confusion, lack of concentration, fatigue, muscle weakness, inability to stand without fear of falling and much much more. My boss, seeing ( Read more... )

hello once again friends.  It is literally 80 degrees in the office, and I still have goosebumps, so I am wearing my coat.

ok now its night time.  I went to the gym and signed up and worked out for like 45 minutes. after having a really shitty day, i feel wayyyy better and tired and awesome.

Well today is a so-far-so-good kind of day.  I'm trying to figure out how to update the company website, but there are so many stupid features in our network that make it impossible for me to be able to access anything i need to be able to.  I want to find an excuse to get out of the building today so I can get craft supplies to make some sort of ( Read more... )

Hi world. I had my physical today with my new doctor.  That's pretty exciting. he was nice. He wants me to see a neurologist for my headaches.  He also ordered some bloodwork for me to have done. Mostly normal stuff except for the random Lupus test he told me was because I had headaches, but didn't tell me he was searching for Lupus. Oh well ( Read more... )

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My dad and I went to the casino last night and spent a lot of time and his money.  I didn't bring my purse in because I didnt want to spend any money, and they actually carded me! haha.  Goblin is being a food slut.  My back still hurts but the pain has spread up to my neck as well. I am trying to roll my neck and stretch the muscle but when I get ( Read more... )

John and I are done. For good this time.  Not because I don' t love him anymore, but because there is no future, and he does not make me happy anymore.  But I am okay.  I really am.  I am okay because I don't care if we get back together, because I'm less happy when we are.  I will always love him.  I will probably continue to dream about him for a ( Read more... )

today has been one HEAVY lourde. I did a lot of manual labor/heavy lifting and tomorrow reeks of more of the same. Tonight I am going to take a hot bath. I don't care about the heating bill, it will be heated to my liking. Maybe I'll even use oatmeal. how you like me now?! Nonetheless a productive day. Tomorrow is Inauguration Day. I'm ( Read more... )

cool. so i'm eating this oatmeal and getting ready to go back to work after  a nice weekend away from RI. sweet. the next step is shower but i really never want to go shower if it means work it up next.

and oh i'm vaguely worried but being told not to worry so i'm trying not to worry. i hate mysteries.

dear world
i need to meet some swarthy vampires or pirates or something.