45 years of slumber ( Read more... )

so i am feeling like the biggest fattest cow known to man kind right about now. i always said if i hit 200lbs i'd kill my self.. well suicide seems to be looming ever closer lately. although i only have 30 days left in this pregnancy i am 189lbs!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!! never and i mean never in my life have i ever been this heavy. i am too damn short to ( Read more... )

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well lets see i have been feeling ill since 2 am sunday when i puked all over the livingroom floor :p not fun. then me and the hubby had to deal with my relationship issues. and my low self estem. i have decided that i do not make a good pregant person. i just can't handle the whole being huge and unattractive. i miss my tight fitting clothing and ( Read more... )

maybe this is just me but i go through long periods of not wanting to socialize. which is just compounded by the fact that i am NOT a happy pregnant person. i do not enjoy this whole being huge and my wordrobe not fitting. the mood swings hit me hardest when i have to go to a socal event.. due to the fact that NOTHING FUCKING FITS! don't get me ( Read more... )

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http://www.afa.net/petitions/marriagepoll.asp

stop the closed minded asses from swaying the vote... so far so good.. 32% against 53% for gay marriage. hell i think my "Dad's" life would have been easier if he could have just married Danny.. *sigh*
so go vote damnit!

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well another christmas has come and gone. only this year i was someones wife as well as mother. it was weird waking up to silence as both boys slept in. we did our gift exchange with my grandmother and uncle. Paul loved his Martini sculpture i made him and all his other presents. and he got me my big huge cocktail ring :} plus a Tim Burton book ( ( Read more... )

ok so i suck at computery things so i'm just gonna make one huge post. so i beg your forgiveness now ( Read more... )