Comments | glorified_4_eva: emotions........

glorified_4_eva

emotions........

Jun 20, 2007 01:26

well its been a long time since i made an entry. Shawn bought me a real journal and i've been using it. so anyway. there's so much going on in my life right now that i feel like i can't handle but i know that i can. first shawn and i are on two diffrent levels i guess. it's so cuz i love her so much and care about her but every time u turn around ( Read more... )

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well.... safire_kisses June 22 2007, 03:13:53 UTC

First I want to address you and I. I am not sure where to start. Like I said earlier I am trying my best to hold up my end of the bargain. I see things that could be better and I know what can make them better. You don't want to hear me because you are dealing with other issues. It's like I am caught in the crossfire. We have been on the same page for a long time as far as us and every since we got back togther it seems like you are holding back. Well seem is an understatement, U are holding back. U are holding back because of your fears. I made the choice to get back together with you because I love you very much and I know that we can get thru our "issue" together. When you feel like I am irritated sometimes it's because I am. I am irritated because I can't get out how I feel without causing an argument. Then you want it to just go away. U don't want to talk about it. Problems do not go away by themselves. You don't like deep discussions and when I read what you wrote about details I understand better why we always argue. I am a ( ... )

safire_kisses June 22 2007, 03:15:07 UTC

but it will get better. If you really think about it God is watching us and over us. When we be obedient He will bless us with more than we can handle. That is supposed to be our goal. the devil is trying to tear us apart. are you going to let him?Believe it or not I have a medical condition that I am now taking meds for so I know that I will be able to control my emotions better. I guess you didn't beleive me. It is physical. I feel more calm and it will get better everyday. I am on a mission to be better, better than I have ever been. The older I get the more different I think. You used to give me kinds words but there are none. Where did they go? Do you not want to be with me anymore. I want to be with you as long as it is possible. Once more thing. You need to learn to let it go and forgive me as I have forgave you. I didn't reject you because I didn't want to be with you. You know my reason and you act like I did you dirty because I am a bitch. I know it's hard because I have been there but I have moved on. Your hurt feelings ( ... )

safire_kisses June 22 2007, 03:15:33 UTC

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safire_kisses June 22 2007, 03:15:47 UTC

They are going to be alright. James knows what he is doing and you know you reap what you sow. Vengence is mine saith The Lord. Wouldn't it be great for him to lose what he thought he didn't love and he finally realize that he messed up? I'm crazy I know you don't think like me..lol ( ... )