(no subject)
(the moose we met at Algonquin)
Im never going to forget you summer. My summers away from here, my summers of belonging.
Im about to embark on a new journey soon. Something Im absolutely afriad of, but I know I can do it. I know its what I need to do. I know more now, then I've ever known before that I dont belong here. I belong up there, over there, down there but not here.
I feel so safe knowing I know what need and where I belong.
This summer I spent it away from everything that made me miserable. I felt, infinate.
I know now how I can be like that again, and it makes me feel so bubbly inside, I get so giddy and happy.
I want to spend the rest of my life reading, writing and feeling the hot sand inbetween my toes. I want
to do cartwheels in morning dew grass early in the morning, laughing hysterically because I feel like im 2 years old again.
I want to have a bathtub, with a shower nob on top, one of those HUGE ones that feel like your in a rainstorm, and youkick the puddles of water that haven't made it down the drain yet. I want to paint my bathroom white and blue, and have those oversized towels that you can wrap around your body at least three times. I want to live in an old old plantation style home by the water that I can spend the rest of my renovating and fixing. I want it to be butter white, and I want a balcony and a wrap around porch. I want a canoe, and a big sail boat with large sails that fill up with little zephyers so it looks like a tumbling summer cloud flying by to say hello. I want to be beautiful when I grow up. Not your typical blond hair, blue eyes beautiful, but the beautiful natural girl with gorgeous untammed long waves in her hair, sun bleached who is quiet but you know she has 100000 stories to share. When im old, I want to move to an old fishing town off the coast of Nova Scotia and open a childrens book store, and leave a dish of jelly beans out on the counter.
I want to change the world, like no other.
im so full of dreams. I never want to loose it.