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[glowstic]

the pot was sweet and smooth, lizard wisps inside my throat. the alcohol bitter, cranberry laced, a bubble breath of smoke. i walk, i am a wizard freezing time and space at once, while pixies dance and ruminate in glass bottles making memories.

I thought this would hurt more, I guess maybe I really don't have very much left anymore.It does hurt,

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[thursdayfoxes]

I just feel devoid of emotion, like each feeling is laced with this crushing indifference, shielding me from experiencing anything too painful. I just want to get through this year so I can start again next year, and if I have to relinquish my control on the vivid and beautiful emotions in which I would once seek solace, or lose myself in routine activities just to do it, then I will. I'm sorry that it hurts, I never intended it to.

and, jftr, I think smoking pot is wonderful. I always feel so warm and content.

[glowstic]

i just meant to remind you that you have me, even if i mean nothing to you, even if you have no emotion. i would hope that would be one small comfort, since you seem to have little else to comfort you. i care, to say the least. what's happened to you, a? i haven't heard from you in months. ghostblossom@live.com-->i am always here.

and it was wonderful. it was my first time, oh it was lovely. i felt very warm.

[thursdayfoxes]

I don't know what's happened to me. mostly, I've just ran away from everything and everyone for a little while, just to clear my head and start again.
you could never mean nothing to me, k, never, ever. how are you?

[glowstic]

i miss you, first of all.
i'm all right, i guess. hanging in there. trying to deal with this new body of mine and trying to lose weight at the same time. it's very frusterating. i think i'm also sexually frusterated, ha. but that came to me in a dream last night. it's summer so i don't have much to do. i am both happy and sad at the same time, and im still trying to figure out how that could be.