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glowy_brows

[Private; Hackable]

Jun 14, 2008 19:03

It wasn't real. The past few weeks ... it was all just a dream. All those memories I had of the last fifteen years ... were fake. And so was my daughter.

It's stupid. I shouldn't be feeling this way. For God's sake, I'm mourning the "death" of someone who never even existed! But it hurts. It hurts so much. I almost wish David hadn't come to rescue ( Read more... )

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mollyforeva June 14 2008, 23:33:01 UTC

I got a notification for this entry and I could see it was here on the archives. You're losing your touch, golden boy.

Koji's worried about you too, now.

Don't hide things like this from me, damn it.

((...yes Eva gets notifications now.))

glowy_brows June 14 2008, 23:36:51 UTC

Touch? What touch? You know that technology and me are mutually exclusive concepts.

He is ...? Why? How much does he know about what happened?

I just ... Look, it's pointless for me to think about this anymore than I should. She wasn't real/. The sooner I get over this, the better.

mollyforeva June 16 2008, 01:06:36 UTC

He's the one who hacked this for me. And I told him what had happened. Everything.

Jordan, you're in pain. Even if she wasn't "real"... you have memories of her, don't you? I can't expect you to just "get over this". You can't expect that. Just... god. Open up for once. Let me help you.

glowy_brows June 16 2008, 16:30:51 UTC

You ... you did? Aw, geez. I was hoping that too many people wouldn't have to know. They'll just worry over me needlessly.

I'll be fine, really! You know me, always bouncing back like a rubber ball. I'll get over it, eventually. Just gotta keep a stiff upper lip.

((Augh! What a time to not have my "awkward smile" icon!))

wannabesanta June 15 2008, 01:36:07 UTC

Doesn't mean she can't be real some day. Am I right?

glowy_brows June 16 2008, 16:32:13 UTC

Yeah, maybe. But you never know how the future is going to turn out. It was all just my imagination on what the future would be like.

wannabesanta June 16 2008, 22:26:42 UTC

Well, it doesn't mean it can't be close now. [Eye Roll]

I'm sure if and when you have child you'll have just as much fun.

It's silly to long for what you can't have now.

glowy_brows June 17 2008, 01:55:02 UTC

I know, I know. "No use crying over spilled milk." Even if it wasn't real to begin with.

Don't worry. I'm learning to deal. I've just gotta wait until Eva's ready, then I can start a family. It's ... not the end of the world.

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lovelovegoddess June 15 2008, 05:46:56 UTC

You have a long life to life, Jordan-san. One day she'll be real.

glowy_brows June 16 2008, 16:32:46 UTC

I hope so. But it all depends on what Eva wants ...

[Hacked!] timey_wimey June 15 2008, 10:57:50 UTC

I'm sorry, Jordan. Really, I am.

...One day, she'll be real.

Re: [Hacked!] glowy_brows June 16 2008, 16:34:02 UTC

Thank you. This is ... what, three times you've saved my bacon? You're really starting to make a habit of it, huh?

How do you know? How can anyone really know what the future holds?

Re: [Hacked!] timey_wimey June 16 2008, 20:53:03 UTC

You need to stop getting in so much trouble.

Well. No one can really know what the future holds. It'd drive you mad. Trust me, I know. Besides, I say her, but I guess what I really mean is that... you'll still have kids, Jordan. Some day, some time. And I bet you'd make a wonderful father.

Re: [Hacked!] glowy_brows June 16 2008, 21:18:29 UTC

I wish I knew how! It's one of the great mysteries of the galaxy that I'm still trying to figure out!

I can imagine that's why Canaletto went insane and why Sul is so bored with life. I don't think I'd want to see my own future, if given the chance. Don't want to spoil the surprise!

Thanks. And I know Eva will make a wonderful mother. She just needs to wait until she's ready, that's all.

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1/2 - sorry I'm late! new_avatar June 16 2008, 19:55:34 UTC

JORDAN!

2/2 new_avatar June 16 2008, 19:57:02 UTC

You're back! You're all right (right?)! Toph said something happened to you while I was gone. I'm so sorry I couldn't help...

...Wait...daughter?

glowy_brows June 16 2008, 20:49:47 UTC

She did, did she? Hm, guess she's always going to worry about me, huh? Nice to know she cares enough to tell you.

It's a ... long story. Let's just say, I was asleep for a couple of weeks, and I dreamed that fifteen years had passed and I had a daughter ...

new_avatar June 18 2008, 02:33:52 UTC

Of course - she loves you and Eva too! I think she was staying with Eva actually. Anyway, we both worried, but the important thing is that you're okay.

So that's what happened..? A whole fifteen years...Maybe you really will have a daughter fifteen years from now. Who knows for sure, but just maybe what you saw wasn't really a dream. What if it was some sort of premonition - do you think that's possible?

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