Hello y'll,

I am in smallville kansas.  YAY. ummm NOT.  I have been here since monday and will not be leaving until tomorrow after i cheer again.  Today is the first day i get access to the internet.  I am so happy about that.  Our boys basketball team made it to nationals.  So over my whole spring break i had to come down here and cheer.  It's ( Read more... )

When i think about y'll hurting yourself ( Read more... )

The other day i was talking to zach about dreams, de-ja-vue, and things of that sort.  He was talking about demension.  Like parallel universes.  It made me think.  We really don't know and there could be other demensions of ourselves living in front of us with out us knowing it.

Anyways, you all know i have neurotic dreams and a sleeping ( Read more... )

I can not sleep. Again. Last night i had a headache all night and only slept about an hour. Stupid sinuses. Today i was so exhausted and ill feeling. I only slept like 3 hours this morning when i got done from class. And i can not sleep now. Ya think i would be so tired i could not keep my eyes open but i am not. I can not get to sleep ( Read more... )

I have so much to say but can not express it ( Read more... )

I have heard that most humans only use 10 pecent of their brain.  Personally i sometimes think i am crazy and i know some of my friends think they are crazy to.  Could it just be that they have tapped into a part of the brain that we are not aware of or maybe we just look past all the bullshit we are taught to know and question the known.  "The ( Read more... )

I know y'll watch adult swim...........  Robot Chicken......  OMG,

That was some funny shit.  I thought it was halarius.

Anyways,  the past week has been good.  Met some cool people.  Started running more than twice a week.  I also went to the hospital to see my grandpa.  That was really sad.  He is hooked up to all sorts of machines and can ( Read more... )

Today has been amazing.  I woke up and took a shower and then i find out that my classes are canceled because my teacher was sick.  Totally kickass since i have classes from 7:30-11.  I went back to bed because i did not get to sleep until like 4am because of my sinuses.  I slep for another 3 hours and went to lunch.

Then i find out i am getting ( Read more... )

I wrote part of this entry in response to Alicia's recent journal entry and the rest is just more of my thoughts.

Sometimes i wonder if that because i never grew up with a "normal family" if i will ever be able to have a functioning one myself.  If somehow because of the lack of motherly contact that i am fucked for life because i never experienced ( Read more... )

Whew,

I have been so busy lately and it's not going to slow down.  I don't mind except it gets to the point where, if i have an hour to sit down, i feel physically sick to get back up.  I feel like throwing up and super drained and drug down.  That was all of last week for me.  This week has been better.  I think i am getting used to it.

Classes ( Read more... )