he brought me flowers to make up for the horrible words he said. but they were the flowers i always told him i liked the least. i slammed the bouquet on the ground until the petals littered the floor. then i went to work ( Read more... )

being 21 is really cool, and i'm definitely going to buy myself the nicest bottle of wine i can find at QFC tonight. and then i'm going to sit at my desk and drink most of it while i figure out which colors in my watercolor kit match my emotions. which might take awhile, seeing as i've been having the weirdest emotions of my life lately ( Read more... )

first panic attack in 8 months, and it's on my birthday. suxorz.

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i am a giant terrordactyl, hovering and gliding over the swamplands on a warm front that's been coming in since yesterday. as all the small animal life below me scurries in fear of my hunger or sport, i casually stare off into the horizon. there's no day like today man, no day like today.

live every week like it's shark week

i just got so much done in the last thirty minutes i feel like i own the world.

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and as i sit there, following the limitless trails into seething hatred, i think to myself. why do i do i keep doing this if i know i'm going to end up feeling this way? maybe i want to feel on edge? panicked? confused? repulsed? slightly jealous? do i really want to feel all those things? because i complain about it like i should stop but i never ( Read more... )

i was watching my so called life, and laughing and beading and drinking tea in my bed. my little paint easy filled with beads was resting on my keyboard when i leaned in a little too far and all the beads fell into my comforter and all over my feet. this meant instead of beading i spent the rest of "peer pressure" reorganizing ( Read more... )