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[gnomewizard]

sometimes i just want everything to stop so i can figure out what i'm doing. i want to have time to think. i want to have time to do things that matter to me. i want to have time for a life. i don't want to be scared or worried or rushed or stressed. i want to stop doing everything i do for other people. i want to stop thinking about other

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[silversparade]

AMEN SISTER

no, really...*hugs*

^silver^

Man...

[helionaut]

I know how it feels. Sometimes I still find myself slipping into my negative old self again. I think coming here to Santa Cruz has been the biggest attitude adjustment ever, and the best thing that's ever happened to me. Maybe you can think about what things need to be changed in your life so that you can wake up every day being thankful for where you are right now, even if not everything is perfect.

Re: Man...

[gnomewizard]

Thanks. I've been adjusting my attitude, as well, but yeah, it's not just one big change and everything's fine. You have to work on it every day, almost all the time. I've never been this self-reflexive. Like, I used to spend a hell of a lot of time being introspective, but it wasn't really useful...it was either negative or, like, out of touch with reality. I like to think that's because I was a kid, not because I was crazy....

Santa Cruz is a good place. I should spend more time there. My sister loves it & tells me stories, I try to let her attitude influence me cuz she seems so damn happy. You know, I'd say Galway is a little like Santa Cruz, in terms of music & hippies...I mean, as much like Santa Cruz as anyplace in Ireland can be. I'm glad you like it there!

Anyway, yeah, all this is like having religion and saying prayers every day, except it's a really selfish religion. But it sure beats self-flagellation!