I stayed home from school today. Im not sure why i did really. I think its because last night i decided im tired of school. once i even think that i want to stay home tomorrow, even if i get up and get ready, i find a way to stay home. i dont know why. i even drove beth and sarah to school today and decided to stay home. i mean, i didnt feel ( Read more... )

I just got home from the doctor. I guess i have a viral infection in my throat. it sucks because im tryin to diet for weightlifting, but all i want to do is eat some icecream and frenchfries and peanutbutter... im going insane!! on the bright side, i can eat suckers and stuff like that, which does help my throat. so anyway, weightlifting. im ( Read more... )

i hate being constantly sad about my dad. i just want to be over it. and i think i am sometimes but then i just come to realize that im a sad pathetic cry baby who cant just get over it. and i hate it. i hate crying, i hate feeling sorry for myself, and i hate being different from everybody. i just want my fucking dad back. life would be so ( Read more... )

im so pissed right now. i found out yesterday i will have to have lunch by myself. im really not looking forward to that. i tried to get my schedule changed so i can have e lunch, but they wont change it. now i still have c lunch and there will be absolutly nobody i know in there, since this is an all junior/sophomore lunch. i know its not a ( Read more... )

HAVE YOU EVER ( Read more... )

it sure is christmas. surprisingly, im quite cheerful, or not so depressed tonight. i was expecting to be grumpy, but im not too bad. not much has happened in the past few days. i hung out with jessica, which was fun. sarahs birthday was on Wednesday. we went to a crowded ass party, and came back to my house and playing drinking games. o ( Read more... )

10 things you want ( Read more... )

im worried. about chris and i, i mean. its hard for me to even type this, let alone say it. i just think things arent working out like i thought they were. i really love him so much. i just dont think he wants to be with me sometimes. he gets so mad when i even mention not hanging out with him one night, and he may say hes not mad, but i know ( Read more... )

hm. so lets see.. since i have last posted, not much has happened. I tried out for a volleyball team with beth, and to my surprise, I made it. Beth didn't :( I was extremely nervous because to club director of this team also happens to be the head coach at burke(well, was, ill explain that later), and i quit burke's team. it was all very ( Read more... )

ok well lets see.. Friday night, chris read my journal. i think he only read the past entry, but wow. i was pissed(at myself for even writing those things, and leaving it out for him to see). i know if i had gone to used his computer and his journal was open and i saw my name in it, i would have read it. so anyway, i got home and he wasn't here ( Read more... )