Well..

[go_big_blue]

I'm really confused right now. I can't stop thinking about my ex boyfriend Brandon. We dated about a year ago and I really acted like a total horse's ass. I really regret it too. I realize now what a total jackass I was and realized I had these feelings for him. I dunno. I'm going crazy thinking about it yet I can't get it out of my head. I can't

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[tranquil_mother]

Where is the confusion?
dont you know the old saying?
if you love him let him know!
obviously there are feelings and good emotions there. i dont see any reason NOT to tell him.

[tranquil_mother]

JUST
make sure before you do, THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT.
i remember how much he liked you and was totally into you so im sure he was hurt when you let him go. so dont do it to him again, make sure that is the route you want to take and that you are over "HIM"

[go_big_blue]

Yes I do realize that's what I want. I've had the past like three weeks since I hung out with him to think about it. And that's all I've done is think about it. I'm over "him".. That chapter in my life is over which is now why I finally would be able to talk to Brandon about that situation. I wasn't able to do that before 'cause all of those feelings for "him" were still there. I know it'd help him realize why I acted the way I did and make him realize maybe that I'm serious this time. I never was one for opening up to him. Maybe this would show him that it'd be different this time around. I was a totally idiot and treated Brandon like shit. I don't really know that he'd even reconsider us dating again because of that reason. I don't know.. I guess the only way to find out is to tell him. I don't really know if I could do that always wondering "what if" thing.

By the way, I'm so over "him" that he had written me an e-mail and I didn't even respond. I'm looking forward.. No more looking back.