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[goatfarmer2b]

well, i am staying home from all three jobs today because i have a cold:( three jobs sounds like a lot but when it's broken down, it's not. I was supposed to work the reception desk at the chiropractic office from 6:45am to 12:30pm, teach a Pilates lesson from 1:30-2:30, and then teach Pilates to students followed by staff at the high school down

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[caywood]

hey! I was thinking about what you said about a sore throat symbolizing you not being able to speak up. That's really interesting. I read a book where it said something similar about symptoms symbolizing something bigger happening in your body. Have you been able to talk to Kevin about the move? I worry that if you don't talk about it, you're gonna move and he's gonna be hurt and resentful and you will end up being mad at each other and lose your closeness. Are you going to break up if you move?

[goatfarmer2b]

we haven;t really been able to talk about it. when i bring it up he says he's not ready. he already is hurt and i think resentful. i don't know if we'll break up. i told him a couple months ago that i wanted to work on our relationship and strengthen it so when/if i do move, we're in a good place relationship-wise to deal with it. we have worked on our relationship, but once in a while i wonder if he is (subconsiously?) pushing me away. there seems to be some passive aggression going on. maybe from both of us.
i prolly shouldn't write this all on lj, but you know what? what do we have to hide? we're all human and we go through a whole variety of shit. here's some of my shit.