"I want to cry. I need to cry. But I'm all out of tears. I've used them all up."

my sister said that on her birthday.

right now I know exactly what she means.

I'm so sick of everything.

I'm going insane. I thought I could just brush this off, but I haven't yet.
I feel fucking pathetic.
I'm ridiculous.
all this is doing is causing drama.
I shouldn't have even said anything.

fuuuckk meeee.

I'm so glad I'm going away this weekend.
I need to just forget about this for a couple of days.

of course right after I write that, you sign on and talk to me.
how fucking ironic is that.

it didn't go the way it should have.
I hate this.

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I'm happy.
very happy.

but things are still missing.
I don't know what.

pointless?
definitely.

bye.

It also pisses me off that people I used to be such good friends with can be so shady and change so much over nothing.

I hate girls so much.
really, it's so much easier having the boys.

I don't know why boys like girls.
we're bitches.
fuck.

If I were a boy, I would be gay.

I haven't stopped listenin to Matt since Friday.
mmmmm husband.

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