Lately I don't get tired at night anymore. I have to trick myself into sleeping. Usually watching batman until my eyes can't stand the strain of LCD after a long day of glaring and typing and pausing and clicking. I like my everyday happenings, in this way I feel old. But in so many other ways I am new and ignorant. But I don't think I want that ( Read more... )

Not sure what all to say. My momentum on so many things feels drained. I need to be psyched again.

I can't wait for school to start back up!

I do wonder if thats the correct term I'm looking for (in the title). At the moment I am swamped with things I'd like to have already completed but haven't. I guess for the most part I'm either unfocused or over anxious. But at least some things are getting close to getting done, I guess. Even if in the grand scale of things they don't matter all ( Read more... )

Since everyone seems to be reading these days I'll enlighten the blessed few that would dare wonder what I'm gazing through.

Books to read (In Order):
Technological Change and the Transformation of America by Var.
Moral Man and Immoral Society by Rienhold Niebuhr
Babbitt by Sinclair Lewis
The Bronte Sisters by Ernest Dimnet
Police Blotter by Jay ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that I was actually in the game Halo 3 (For some reason this happens often) but I was Toby from the office wearing a vacation outfit. Sandals with socks? Yeah. Well I was playing on the map valhalla that has a base for each team. I managed to get to the opposing teams base and found a sign that said 'finding the shit fan ( Read more... )

I sit here nervous as can be. Lately instead of studying I'm simply trying to calm my nerves. It seems that I have really upset myself over school. And now I don't know how all this college mess is going to turn out. I guess the worse that could happen is I fail the Trig exam, get a gpa of below 2.0 and then lose financial aid. Causing my schooling ( Read more... )

I need to study for the trig exam... but I can't seem to sit down and do it! All I keep wanting to do is read old books or play video games. Why is it I get these urges when I need them the least! *frustration ( Read more... )

So today I go out and sit in a library. Hopefully typing away at some keyboard looking at some screen making some sense of this overall tone in my head. Who knows what will really transpire. I could completely change my mind by the end of it all. Lets hope I get some good points down and maybe even find a good book or two to read ( Read more... )

Today has come and for the most part gone, and here I sit in retrospect wondering what happened. I mean I remember where I was at. What I did. But what really happened? Elsewhere in this day where my eyes didn't see and my feet didn't walk? How much more existence went unnoticed and unchanged ( Read more... )

I'm up rather early for this week. Lately I was getting up around ten to eleven-ish. Here I sit at nine twenty. Out of it and thinking to myself, 'It's already June!'. Not only that but my fathers birthday is tomorrow. I'm broke and uncreative so I'm hoping I can just call and give him well wishes. I don't want my family thinking I moved to forget ( Read more... )