In the end, friends are only going to let you down. Tessa, sad as that may be, is really the only person in my life not too consumed by their own petty shit to care about anyone else. why, even right now, she's curled up next to me, sleeping through joy division and the klack klack klacking of the keyboard ( Read more... )

really wish i cared
really wish i didn't fear it
really am glad you're happy
just really don't wanna hear it

it's flattering but menacing
how you always have to know
it's tattered and unraveling
and it's started to show

speak your case, shut your mouth
swallow your pride, spit it out
sit right here and take a stand
it's so spontaneously planned

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I tried to go into the air force. I was turned away due to depression medication and high blood pressure medicine ( Read more... )

"Count ( Read more... )

all the cool people are dying.

from now on just to post lyrics here, so as to not lose them in case something happens to the hard copy ( Read more... )

i have nothing to offer anyone that they couldn't get more or better from somewhere else.

i'm so completely fucking unremarkable. just like anna nicole's anus.

Gah. i told my mom i was moving to OKC, and she flipped out and tried to persuade me with a fucking nonstop barrage of doubt. "you can't afford to live in OKC. come back to enid with your tail between your legs. blah blah blah ( Read more... )

I got drunk with Rev, and i feel as if i've been sweated. I said things i wish i hadn't said. things she shouldn't hear. things nobody should hear. I really wish i hadn't told her that it still gets under my skin every time detox brings up her love interest(s). fuck! i have never felt so lame in my life and even though i absolutely love having her ( Read more... )