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[goddamnitall]

my mother died this morning at around 8:30 am. i wasn't there to say goodbye, so i feel like kicking the shit out of myself for that. right now i'm going through a stage of sorrow and regret. but i'm always reminding myself of the brighter side

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[xxxemptyxxx]

*hugs*

[noise_fiend]

Kim,
I know I've been kind of distant lately, and I'm sorry for that, it's just really hard for me to deal with other peoples emotional-ness, which I really should work on. But I want you to know that you're loved, and you have all the sympathy I can possibly give. I think it's a good idea to keep the kitty, it could be a little more than ironic that she wandered into your life right now. I'm sure both you and your dad could use a bundle of joy around the house.
*hugs*

[goddamnitall]

i've been emotional? i thought i was doing rather well....damn i need to work on that.

i will keep the kitten. she's been a wonderful distraction, and i don't think i could lose two things in such a short period of time.

i'll be in school on monday, would you like to come to the funeral, or to the wake? i'm making mini handouts for people so they can come because a few kids have already called wanting to know some info...so i figured i'd ask you as well since you did meet my mother. even if it was only briefly.

[noise_fiend]

yeah, I will definitely come. My mom asked me about it today too when it was etc)
you haven't been too emotional, and you have been really strong. Alot stronger than I think I could ever be in a situation like that, and you amaze me because of it. But at the same time, I still feel the need to try to comfort and console you, but I'm really bad at that kind of think, I think thats more what I was trying to say.

[goddamnitall]

yeah the information is on the recent entry. thank you again, and it's alright. i use to be like that, so it's understandable.

[inode_finder]

I am sorry to hear of your loss.
You are in my thoughts...

[victoria_fusion]

she is free from any suffering now,

you're in my thoughts tonight, sweetie

[willowslove07]

I agree with victoria_fusion. she's free now.
things will get better, slowly

[goddamnitall]

yeah very slowly.

i know it's better this way. but there were so many things i wanted my mother to see. like my future wife, her grandchildren, my graduation, my first time teaching. all those things i had always imagined her being there for isn't going to happen quite that way.

even though i can't see her, i know she's out there somewhere watching and waiting patiently for me to join her. but thoughts like that doesn't drive the pain and the tears away.

[willowslove07]

the pain and tears are hard put to leave when you lose someone so close to you.

if you know she's out there waiting and watching, maybe she'll see you living your life and being happy. all she wanted was to see you happy.