i accidentally put my under-panties on inside out when i was getting dressed to go to the show ( Read more... )

i've been feeling it coming for days. it's been rising and bubbling and brooding against me. and now it has finally come ( Read more... )

i should be working on my room....but i'm not.

i think i'll do it tonight at three when i'm still awake and wired.

i slept till noon, got up, ate, went to couch, fell back asleep.
mom got a squirt bottle and used it to sabatoge my beautiful rest.

stupid spray bottle.

the bird liked it though.

good for him.

he just pooped. a fat watery poop. that's it. i've had it. damn bird has GOT to go...nerg....chirp chirp chirp SMACK...*maniacle laughter fills the background*

*no animals were harmed during the preceding program*

the fricken bird nibbles on my neck!

DAMMIT LEXI COME SEE ME!!!
or atleast caaaaaaall....or magically using your special mind powers sense when i'm home and THEN call instead of the tintilating game of telephone tag we seem to have been playing...

STOP NIBBLING YOU FREAK!!!!

bad 80s madonna. enough to make any one feel good. haha ( Read more... )

i just realized how long it has been since i have posted. yeah, it's been a while. i'm ready for this year to be over. very much so. i think i've already checked out though. studying for finals..yeah no. la la la. i feel like drawing. shit! i was gonna finish that thing...shit. seven months till xmas. cool cool. sorry lexi, i forgot to give you the ( Read more... )

funny how i got a blanket but i'm still shaking.

i don't think that's why i'm shaking.

my head hurts.

i think i'll get tylenol when i take my meds.

yes. i think that would be a good idea.

god i'm a wreck.

Do you realize how unbelievable long it has been since I have had the burning desire to destroy myself? Since the play last semester. That’s a record for me. Well, yeah. I’m seriously hoping that this is just the meds that I forgot to take on Monday working their magic on me. If not, I’m screwed. Working so damn hard to be okay and not to do shit, ( Read more... )

random depression. well, i guess it isn't actually random. it's been here for a while, but i keep putting it off. i need to get angry and let it all go. but i won't let myself. so i go online or call lexi and somehow block out the rising depression and anger and hate that is rising and choking off my oxygen ( Read more... )