So it has been awhile yes? I try to call occaisionally to talk and therefore this old journal doesn't get much use. I used to use it when I was feeling particularly emotional but lately I've kind of been dead in that department. I'm either happy talking to Billy or Bryan, Nicole, Angela, Brenton, and Laura, or I'm just blah. It's an interesting way ( Read more... )

So, it's been awhile eh? A whole fucking week since I left. I feel like it's been longer. Like I've been gone for ages. I do really miss you guys, well, most of you. *grin* I am to be bored out of my mind this summer, I've figured that out now. I have nothing to do but work on my house until orientation, and then again until fish camp (that, for ( Read more... )

So most of you, if you've thought about it, have noticed that I don't post very much anymore. Well, my reason for that is because I'm tired of two sentence long cryptic depressing and self loathing posts. So I decided that I wouldn't post unless I actually had something that I wanted to say to you all. Because honestly, who besides me cares what I ( Read more... )

I want to sing! And cry at the same time. I'm in love! And being ripped apart at the insides. DAMMIT ( Read more... )

It is amazing how desensitied we have become as a society, not only to horror and violence, but to love as well. How often every day do you tell someone you love them? I know I do all the time, because it's true, I love all my friends and I think that everyone deserves to know that they are loved. But "love" has become such a common word now that ( Read more... )

No one ever complains about things going too fast emotionally. Or at least I've never heard that. Everyone always says things are going too fast if the other person wants to do something, physically, that is more than that person is willing to put forth. Or expectations, sometimes those are too fast too. But never emotions. I don't understand, ( Read more... )

Ok, so the last entry I posted is the longest thing I've ever written on here and actually probably the longest I've ever seen posted on here but if you guys don't read it and ask me questions that I have already adressed I will be irritated. Now, Prom. So I went to get my hair done with Dani and pretty much spent all day with her beforehand and it ( Read more... )

So today, I'm totally excited to give blood right? Second time for me, first time was no big deal. I just wanted to give because I think everyone should, I mean hey, there's gonna be a time when I'm gonna need blood so why not give to others in return eh? So anyways, I get there and I sit in the chair waiting for her to poke me in the finger to ( Read more... )

I love some things about life...*sigh* unless someone gets you really worked up and then leaves you hanging...*sighs again* I need to get laid...any volunteers?

So just to let you all know, I broke up with Sean today for the last time. At least until I graduate and move to Texas and get settled. I told him that it just wouldn't work and I didn't actually realie how much that would hurt me. I feel like a load of horse poo right now. I really don't know what to do with myself. But I'll survive. Just don't ( Read more... )