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[godhandmouth]

Oh my lord, I am the most melodramatic and moody human being I have ever made contact with! Less than one hour and twenty minutes ago, I was toying with the idea of cutting my arm with a steak knife, and here I am feeling normal

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[epiphanymonger]

yes. i wrote myself a note yesterday...where is it?....ah. that said "emotional instability". And I boxed it in. I'm pretty sure I intended to look it up as some psychological disorder that I (in the upper realm of potential) should be diagnosed with. I'm too all over the place. One minute (usually when walking from here to there, or there to here, in some form), I'll be really excited about something like studying and reading and writing and then the next minute--gone. Nothing. Brain death. It happens when I get into my room, especially. Of course, that's just one example. My memory, as in concrete memory, is hardly ever active anymore. I notice that every once in a while when I don't think about it my memory will sneak up on me and show me how it should be functioning. Like the other day in postmodernism class, I was writing down this paragraph in my notes, looking up and down every couple of words like I usually do for some reason. Then I got distracted. My mind went somewhere else. And I forgot what I was doing.