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[godotwashere]

I'm sick of these fucking games. I hate games. I don't play games. I can't. The only way to win is not to compete. I hate competing with him. I'd rather just drop out than make you choose. Because I can't play these games you two are playing. And God knows I'd like to start giving ultimatums about now: Either tell him to stop or I can't be with you

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[mcmeekin]

holly, i am sorry :(. it's really hurtful and makes me sad. jealousy is a fun road to walk down.

i think you're amazing. regardless of other people's feelings.

[schismaverick]

:(

[raviolus]

Dear Hollsbury Steak,

I love you like a new pair of pants, but perhaps more sentimentally. Just as materialistically, though. Slightly less obligatory.

[settheskyablaze]

Chin up, Holly, even if it's hard. If the past was worth anything at all it was worth proving to you that no matter what you've survived and existed well outside the chaos. I don't know what I'd do in your shoes, feeling quite the same and stuck and undone, so I don't know what to tell you to do besides try to stay centered and find a happiness outside the relationship to take the focus off the worry. Focus on living not on repair work. Obviously a lot of this is out of your hands. She means a lot but she's not your whole life, and your life is more than a single relationship. Things will sort out the way they will, and you'll still have your self and your friends and everyone else who loves you. Including me.
words don't help, I know, and I'm sorry. good luck.

[lunaedraconis]

It sounds miserable.

Be better soon.

*commands*