When talking feels like begging, that's when I stop, because I promised myself I'd never beg like that again.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am not a masochist, nor have I ever been a masochist. Before you laugh at what seems a blatant untruth, hear me out. I was talking with Shawn today about how tired we both are of being played and manipulated and used and all the rest (because Shawn and I, being so much alike, have similar experiences in our ( Read more... )

I went back to the hospital tonight, for the first time in four years. I don't know why. I was driving home from my ballgame and came to the exit on I-75, the exit I have stealthily avoided ever since I got my license. But I pull off this time. University and Opdyke. I park and walk around the grounds. They're actually quite lovely. The hospital is ( Read more... )

Alright friends, here we go, the long awaited beginning of summer update. I think I'm going to skip the summary of and thoughts on my freshman year update, because I don't feel like writing it, and you'll also have to do without my remarks on the last couple weeks of school, though I will fill you in if you care to ask me about them. So we'll start ( Read more... )

( disorientation )

i want to take you far from the cynics in this town and kiss you on the mouth. we'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene, start a brand new colony where everything will change. we'll give ourselves new names (identities erased). the sun will heat the ground under our bare feet in this brand new colony. everything will change.

( today )

I want to write a big long crazy update about all the stuff that's stewing in my mind right now, but it's way too late for that, so instead I'm going to fill out a survey I borrowed from Daniel (what can I say? I haven't taken a nationwide/statewide standardized test in awhile, and I desperately need to fill in random useless information about ( Read more... )

( Paul is soooo sexy )

slow down my beating heart oh crap driving to summer class just u2 and wallflowers on thinking of amanda cause i'm driving 12 mile and cause i wasn't thinking of anything else and rollerblading in that same parking lot where i felt connected to her after oscar wilde and the kerbys until my dad showed up and you can't get out of moments like that u2 ( Read more... )

This is one of my favorite scientific anecdotes ( Read more... )