i decided to write because theres too much on my mind thats making me go crazy. i dont ask you to sympathize with me, because thats the last thing i need. im sick of people who complain about everything im sick of people who always look for the bad and never see the good. everyone around me has painted the world with a gray tint. life isnt fun and ( Read more... )

Hey as most of you know I almost lost my bro 8 or 7 years ago in car accident (he was walking car hit him near williams). Then he tried to commit suicide about 3 years later. Ever since that I've always been worried about him, I'd try to quiet my fears but the feeling that something else was bound to happen never left me. Well today was ironically ( Read more... )

i am here
can you hear me
i feel
i breath
when pricked
i bleed
i dissapoint
i succeed
i fail
more then once
per hour
per day
per minuit
i know im inept
i dont need you to tell me
i feel so lost
so small
am i transparent
can you see through me
im so scared
dont leave me

i wish i could just distance myself from the world. bc no one, no one understands me here. if i could die today i wouldnt be the least bit sad. i just wish sometimes people would leave me alone!

Ever feel like your worlds spinning out of control? and everything is just complete chaos and somehow youve been caught up in the eye of the tornado?i just wish things would settle, just for a little bit.... but i guess thats not how life is, is it?

I wish everyone could see that theres more to life. We're not here for very long so we've got to make the most of it. Live for everyday. We can't live for ourselves because then life would be wasted. If we want to make an impact we need to be who we truly are and make an impact on someone elses life for the better. We shouldn't have to change for ( Read more... )

well i yeah changed my schedule....... now its more screwed up! PRAY FOR ME!

1ST SEMESTER

- Physics

- Fundamentals of Technology

- Chem 2

- Calculas

2ND SEMESTER

- Calculas AP

- English 4 Honors

- Communication systems

- Chem AP

sometimes im lost in confusion. how do i make someone happy without letting them walk over me? how do i let people know that theyve hurt me then will the pain away? why does it seem like i do everything wrong? why when everything seems fine am i still being reprimended? how can i be so stupid as to say things that i shouldnt? how can i express my ( Read more... )

a rose full bloomed
not yet tattered
sways in the gentle breaze
while the others choke
unable to breath
envy sprouts weeds
the weeds over take the rose
in the end the rose is left tattered
broken by the others greed

insight

i really dont know how to begin theres so much i want to say. this week has been really therapeutic for me. i learned how to love the people that i couldnt before. one day sittin in church the preacher was talking about love and how god is love and he read 1 corinthins 13:4-7 "love is patient, love is kind; love is not envious or boastful ( Read more... )