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Digging deep, I feel my conscience burn.
I need to know who and what I am.
This hunger jolts me from complacency.
Rocks me, makes me meet myself
Jacob walked a limp to remind him
Of the greater gift of the greater one.
But when I fell, I fell to my own resources
How can I carry your truth if I can't crawl to you?
I wanna feel something sweeter than this sin.
Cover me in leaves roll me over again.
I've been everybody else now I want to be.
Something closer to myself
Paint me in a different light.
Shed me yet another coat of skin.
Mark me with ash until I'm clean again.
'cause I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I know I can love you, I know that I can, yeah
I wanna feel something sweeter than this sin.
Cover me in leaves roll me over again.
I've been everybody else now I want to be.
Something closer to myself
i'm about to go to scf; hooray for that starting up again. some people would be so amazed in light of recent events that i don't blame God for any of it, nor do i remotely want to. i may have been a christian for over four years, but lordy, do i not understand this supreme being at all. it seems that the longer i go, the less i go without questioning. which of course is definitely not a bad thing. i still believe with all my heart that the more i wrestle with these burning questions, the closer i come to the day i conquer them and truly make my faith my own, rather than in the past when it was just what some suited old white guy in a pulpit told me to believe. i know very, very few things for certain. one of these is that i definitely want to be a christian. i also know i'm usually atrociously bad at it, but i'm unarguably a total stuborn-ass, so there's no way i'm going to ever give up just because i suck the vast majority of the time. another thing i know is that i almost hesitate to assume that title because of the shameful thing our society has made it look to be. i heartily reject mainstream, white-middle-class culture, tepid churchianity. the kindest term i can give to such a lifestyle is bullshit. i don't want a lofty spiritual figure that i can never relate to. i want the real thing. now, the fun is discovering what the hell that is...
I need to know who and what I am.
This hunger jolts me from complacency.
Rocks me, makes me meet myself
Jacob walked a limp to remind him
Of the greater gift of the greater one.
But when I fell, I fell to my own resources
How can I carry your truth if I can't crawl to you?
I wanna feel something sweeter than this sin.
Cover me in leaves roll me over again.
I've been everybody else now I want to be.
Something closer to myself
Paint me in a different light.
Shed me yet another coat of skin.
Mark me with ash until I'm clean again.
'cause I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I know I can love you, I know that I can, yeah
I wanna feel something sweeter than this sin.
Cover me in leaves roll me over again.
I've been everybody else now I want to be.
Something closer to myself
i'm about to go to scf; hooray for that starting up again. some people would be so amazed in light of recent events that i don't blame God for any of it, nor do i remotely want to. i may have been a christian for over four years, but lordy, do i not understand this supreme being at all. it seems that the longer i go, the less i go without questioning. which of course is definitely not a bad thing. i still believe with all my heart that the more i wrestle with these burning questions, the closer i come to the day i conquer them and truly make my faith my own, rather than in the past when it was just what some suited old white guy in a pulpit told me to believe. i know very, very few things for certain. one of these is that i definitely want to be a christian. i also know i'm usually atrociously bad at it, but i'm unarguably a total stuborn-ass, so there's no way i'm going to ever give up just because i suck the vast majority of the time. another thing i know is that i almost hesitate to assume that title because of the shameful thing our society has made it look to be. i heartily reject mainstream, white-middle-class culture, tepid churchianity. the kindest term i can give to such a lifestyle is bullshit. i don't want a lofty spiritual figure that i can never relate to. i want the real thing. now, the fun is discovering what the hell that is...