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[godspeed_229]

well, for the first time in around a year ive thought about killing myself

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[ali_louche]

Whats up mrrrrr
Hope you are okay
*hugs*
xxxx

[godspeed_229]

*emo below*

Jordan*

[tutsy_465]

dude, why the sadness?
something happened?

xx

[godspeed_229]

various things;
way i look, but ive never been happy bout that anyway.

fact that i cant really trust anyone.

fact that even my closest friends can blow off plans that have been solid for weeks the day before the event like its nothing.

the fact that if i want to make plans to see even my closest friends, with the exception of Emo Martin and Dom G its always me that has to make the plans.

romantic shit

hatred of this area in general.

hearing problems.

im actually feeling better today, but those were the things that contributed to me feeling bad.

Jordan*

[distroya]

i think you are letting your emotions get the better of you. well, the negative ones anyway. i wouldnt be too hard on yourself to be honest. thinking like that solves nothing really.

chin up lad.

[godspeed_229]

well yeh. id say that was pretty obvious. its very rare i do feel sad tho and when i do it comes, like Amplifier sang, "like a mountain of juggernaut"

cheers for posting

Jordan*

[distroya]

no worries mate. just try to look on the lighter side of life. there are some fucking shitty things in this world (as i have experienced in my life, particularly last summer), but you just have to carry on and be strong really.

i'm now babbling, and it made sense at the time in my head, but now it doesnt. i dont know. my brain is malfunctioning.

just keep at what you are doing and try and be the best at it really.