ok im done talking about the drama. do you know why? thats right. because its getting better!;) and i have a feeling that its gonna keep getting better and better for everyone:D amanda finally understands that i would do anything for her, and i think it even made her smile too (finally!:):):):):)) i think everything is gonna be alright ( Read more... )

well, good news is this isnt over, not by a long shot. however, the danger is very real that it might. i dont know, that all depends on amanda. turns out that the reason she wanted to give up is to spare me pain. psh. as if her solution wasnt painful. at this point i still dont know what to think except that ive invested too much into this ( Read more... )

over...never thought that word would come into play....i just dont know what to believe anymore...

been forever since i updated...story of my life i guess:P well really theres nothing to report. actually there is. i got a 3.1 gpa this semester. yeah that sounds good to most people but MOST people didnt get a frickin 4.0 last semester...O_o. anywho, nothing to do now but chill i guess. actually i need to get a job so i think im gonna look places ( Read more... )

today was a little normal but not quite. woke up, got ready, and went to classes. Physics was unusually illustrated today. weve been studying thermodynamics, so naturally the teacher went crazy with hot and cold water. dont need to say anymore there:p in diff eq we just did homework problems. yeah. a lot of help. like i knew what other people did, ( Read more... )

i know i havent updated in a while just been under a whole lot of stress. actually the past few weeks have revolved around school and grades...im really really worried and want to dom everything i can to get as good a grade as i possibly can...yet i dont. i just feel paralized and overwhelmed. i dont know. i feel like im gonna self-destruct. *sigh ( Read more... )

normally id talk about classes but really my mind was preoccupied all day with...*dum dum duuum* my classes, my major, my future....aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! the two Physics tests that i..uhh....stumbled on...made me realize that my interests were more in math than physics, and i was fighting myself all day about it cause the deadline to withdraw ( Read more... )

today i started classes again. i knew that my first class would be the most difficult and it was. i got back my physics test which i knew would suck, and it did. however, theres still hope! so im sticking with it i think. next was differential equations, which all i did was write several theorems out in notes. calculus brought brighter news, for i ( Read more... )

well today was a bit uneventful, but hey, so was the rest of spring break:p i had stayed up late the night before watching the Headbangers Ball until 3 in the morning, so i slept in til 11 or 12 or something. my parents and i were supposed to go to the mall as soon as my dad got home, but my dad was late. on top of all that, when we finally got ( Read more... )

yeah well....its lent, and as some of you know, sacrifices for the love of God are made at this time of year. somehow, while talking to amanda, i came to this conclusion: i need to give up AIM/MSN. So, i wont be on for the next 40 days, and, though i know some will be disappointed, even pissed off. but this is something i have to do. i will still ( Read more... )