maybe I've been buying books all my life for you to read
We're apart this Christmas, and it'll only start for me when you return.
I can't give you a gift when you wake up, so I'm hoping this will suffice.
I'm in complete disbelief, it's the ultimate surreal experience; looking at you and telling myself that you're mine.
How the hell did this happen?
What universal cosmic heavenly big bang phenomena occurred, for you to end up with me?
I'm not exaggerating when I tell you that every morning we've woken up together, I've looked over at you and felt like the luckiest person alive. Luckiest gay person at least.
Your intelligence inspires me and I won't lie, it's sexy as hell.
The fact you were in the semi finals of a math madness competition..
it blows my mind people can do math that fast, and the fact I'm with a mathematics pro.. just
I feel like I'm with a super hero
MATH GIIIIRL
I love it when we're walking around stores and I turn to you then say, "..how much is that percentage off?"
My human calculator.
Your stubbornness infuriates me but I love it when you don't back down.
Our fights are explosive, and the make up sex is,
well it's explosive too.
But I think how we patch things up, work things out and care for each other afterwards, that's proof we're definitely in this 'til our own ends.
My little peanut.
Your determination is something I should learn to emulate. Your drive and will surpasses the level of anyone I've ever come across.
If you had a job assembling cardboard boxes; you would be the best cardboard box assembler.
If you had a job as a shoe shiner; you would be the best shoe shiner that ever existed.
My world leader.
Our sensual overexcitabilities, how happy were we when we found ourselves some definitions?
It's so beautifully intricate, the way our eccentricities piece together. It's almost as if we've found a way to combine oil and water.
So different yet so alike.
We're going to keep puzzling each other until silver hairs line our brow.
Isn't that exciting?
My forever.
You let me be who I am, you've never tried to change me or force things onto me. When I've had difficulty with something, you've understood. When I left my jobs because I'm a gigantic depresso ball, you understood. When I want to play video games instead of watching a favourite tv show of yours with you, you.. well, you didn't get mad at me.
I've done a lot of stupid things and you've always been patient with me.
My artistic block, my trust issues, my anxiety
you've held onto me through all of it
and I'm not quite sure what I did to deserve such love but since you've been gone
I've worked
and worked
and worked on myself
for me, for you, for us.
I understand a lot of things now, and I'm ready to become an adult. A responsible adult.
I'll always want to watch cartoons, buy toys, play with toys and get excited over dinosaurs, but
I'll be a responsible adult not during those moments.
Yes.
You make me want to do everything.
My inspiration.
You've given me so many things I've never obtained from anyone else, two of those things have been so important to me.
One is hope, the other is self confidence.
You believe so much in me that it's hard for my chemical imbalances to knock it back and ignore it.
You've been fighting with my 20 year old emotional self mutilating brain, and you're winning.
I feel confident, I feel strong, I have hope for not just my future, but our future together.
I'm starting to believe in myself and although it's scary and different, it's been possible because of you.
My unstoppable force.
I'm your immovable object.
Saying thank you for loving me seems ridiculous, thank you isn't appropiate for this.
All I can do is continue to love you back, beyond words, comprehension, and the constraints of time.
This feeling isn't just that; a feeling. It's a force, a power, something above all.
And no person or thing will ever waiver it or come between it.
I will love you beyond the point of human existence.
My Brittney Black.