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What's the point?
I wake up every 6am, trying to drive away my fresh dreams of you.
I try to go back to sleep, but I cannot as my mind is on overdrive.
As it has been since we broke up.
What's the point of pretending when I'm not really okay?
What's the point of holdin on? Stupid, I realized I still do.
So let me surrender now.
What's the point?
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Listen, just hear me out.
Yes, I know we agreed
When we break up we'd never
Give in to this need
To admit to each other... I miss you.
Listen just hear my cry
No, I won't break a word
If I do say I miss you, it would never be heard
Let my heart whisper all that it needs to.
Listen just hear my voice
Can you hear all the tears?
That I'm planning to hide for the next thousand years
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Moving on. Step 1.
It was all about you. I was consumed with thoughts on how to win you back. Constantly daydreamed about the day you'll come back. But we both know that's not going to happen. We both know you're having way too much fun being single to even think about me and "our" relationship.
Now it's all about me. How I can feel better. I now have to focus on what ( Read more... ) -
SERIOUSLY.
I cry every night, moped for 2 weeks, thought about you constantly and all you did was have fun and do different activities.
Seriously?
Pero sabi nga ni ate Koku this is why we broke up: because you wanted to do your thing and you think I'm in the way. You blame your own incapacity to tell me how you truly felt about us so we could work it out.
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Come back. Be my man. I'll let you be my man. I'll accept you for who you are. I want a man. A man's man.
Please Lord give him back.
ughhhhhh every fourth day, I start craving for him so bad I can't fight it. Please help me. Courage. Strength. This is for you, Haeja. You can do this.
Break the Paopy habit.
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Here I am trying to find ways to vent. I feel like I've talked the ears off my friends just to get over you.
And this is just the beginning.
Oh please. I don't even know what I'm praying for now. Maybe just a little more relief. Please. Lord.
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I miss you. I truly wish I don't anymore. I wish there wasn't any reason to miss you. But I do. I'm sorry, but I do...
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Day something
And I'm going to tell (not) tell you this: I feel stupid for missing you.
How could I still miss a guy who told me to my face, "Yes, I'm giving up on you"?
Is it really hardwired into our brains to want whom we cannot have?
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Day 10
Wow. It's a sign that I'm improving, right? Two days without blogging here...I hope that's a little improvement.
I woke up today.
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Day 7 part 2
I'm struggling so hard to not hurt myself. To not think about you. To move on. To avoid anything romance-related.
It's working. Then it fails every so often. I'm so....... Oh God. Please. I need help.