the stupid bitch

[golden]

So first off, Chris suddenly starts listening to Rhiannon more than he listens to me. See, apparently she decided to meddle (because for some strange reason she hasn't wanted us to be together from the start) And she told him all sorts of things that he needed to hear FROM ME and that was NONE OF HER FUCKING BUSINESS (you heard me, you goddamned

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[stumbleine]

if you want to be all crazy and blame me for your break up, you go right ahead. if i repeated anything to anyone, it was something that had been circulating for quite sometime. anything i ever knew about you came from shawna or paige, and if chris wasn't supposed to know about something, then you probably shouldn't have told so many people. everything i talked to chris about was stuff that he already knew. you need to calm down and stop blaming everyone else.

[stumbleine]

oh yeah, and if anybody "poisoned" chris's mind, it was you. i might be a dumb bitch, but you're a crazy one.

[stumbleine]

oh, and if you could, please enlighten me as to what it was exactly that i told chris? you really shouldn't go around accusing people of things like this.

[golden]

No, rhiannon, I don't blame you at all. I really am genuinly sorry that I made it seem that way. really, the person I was angry at was Chris, but I was hysterical, and it was hard for me to let myself get angry at him because, well, I was really mentally very fucked up at that moment. I seized on your name in particular because the last time I talked to him, instead of dealing with me, and talking about his feelings, he retreated behind the screen of "well, rhiannon said this type of thing." And you're right, I shouldn't have said so much to so many people, it's a definate problem I have. It just seemed like the people he had been talking to, (BRENDEN being the main one, not you)were emphasizing the negative, and totally ignoring any positive things I might have said. I admit, I didn't say many. I like to hoard my happy thoughts, so it seemed like I was more unhappy with him than I really was. And somehow, even though I hadn't told him the truth about the whole situation I expected him to magically know. He didn't, and when I couldn't

i'm sorry

[afraidtofall]

cheryl,
i'm so sorry. about everything. if you need to talk, i'm willing to listen. although it'll be hard to get hold of me since i dont have a phone. but write me (afraidtofall@aol.com). i'm so sorry again and i hope things get better for you.

shawna

[scure]

umm... to this rhiannon chick...

your friend has just been raped. and all you worry about is what she thinks of you?

you are a bitch. if you can't see the problem here, that you don't even acknowledge that your friend is going thru a very hard time, you're not worth knowing. you're not worth the skin on your body.

love, shirley