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Dec 04, 2007 21:54

Tired of trying to convince her. I keep screwing up.

tws, hope

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sinful_girl December 5 2007, 09:02:40 UTC
Billy. Screwing up?

What?

What do...baby?

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golden_bill December 5 2007, 14:55:06 UTC
*in an very very calm voice*

I heard you talking to Alexis... I didn't realise how naive and neglectful you think I am.

*runs his hands through his hair*
I understand how difficult things might be between us someday since you're Hope and I'm just a human. I'm ready for that though. I've loved you since I knew what romantic love was. I love you as much as living thing can possibly love any other living thing. I just wish you believed me. I know how big that is. I fully understand how big that is. I wish you believed that I could understand that, but you think I'm too young or something.

And I'm sorry for not being around as much as you want me to be. I talk to you every day. I go to all of your races. We hang out all the time. Yeah I have to go to school and hockey and do homework, just like you have to work and race. I'll sneak out more if that's what you want. I'll do anything for you. I just don't want you to feel lonely or like you aren't important to me. I wish you believed that.

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sinful_girl December 5 2007, 18:22:16 UTC
You heard us talking?

I don't think you're those things but...*closes her eyes* Billy, in 60 years or more you're going to be gone from me forever, I can't help but want to spend as much time with you now as I can. I've got one mortal's lifetime with you and thousands without.

And yes, I am lonely, when you grow up with friends you keep them, I grew up over night and lost everyone almost, everyone but you. It's only recently I've been making new friends and I'm going to lose them all one day.

I love you, I love you more than I can say. You're the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. You're my everything and I want to spend as much time with you as I can, while I can.

*looks down* And I suppose that, for me to do that, I...I'm going to have to come with you...aren't I.

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golden_bill December 5 2007, 18:27:51 UTC
Yeah. I mean not everything, I didn't want to evesdrop but I couldn't help listening to what you were saying a little bit.

I'm in great shape, Hope. I'm going to live til I'm 100. And I want to live by doing things with you. There's only so many hours in a day and that sucks but we have to work with what we have. We're doing Christmas together, we're doing everything. *looks away from a second* I don't want you to come with me if you don't want, but you sleeping in my bed every night would give us a lot more time together. We'd eat dinner together and do stuff. I'd still have to study and you'd still have to work but that's life.

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