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Ahh, okay, I decided to write about it anyway. Because I am bored.
So, first off, I found my old blog...
It's so weird to look back and read things from a year ago. I'm in such a different place now than I was then; so much so it's a little scary.
I was so depressed and alone and I completely hated it here. I didn't think I would be able to get through the year. And then the entry where I found out I couldn't go back to California during the summer (before this school year)! I remember I just cried and cried as I wrote it, and I remember praying that night to God to not let this be happening; to not let the coming year turn out like the last.
I was so stupid that year. All the bad came from myself. I was so unwilling to open up, or allow myself to make friends. I thought that if I just stayed unattatched the year would go by faster, I would care less, etc. It was just the opposite.
I really think it was God this year that wouldn't allow me to do it again. Before I knew it I was just out there, and literally in a matter of days I felt like I had known these people my whole life. People don't just bond like that, and I have no one to thank but Him. I can't even imagine living through this past school year like the last one. I would never have made it, being alone all the time. I'm pretty tough, but if there's one thing I need, it's to know that I have someone there, if I need them.
On a lighter note! Had a really fun time today. We went to Anna's house and dyed her hair. It was supposed to come out black, but it turned up brown. Which is fine, because it looks awesome on her. It's not just a regular brown. Sort of auburnish with nice natural highlights.
Too bad it's gonna washout in a week!
We also watched Moulin Rouge. God, I frelling love that movie. Kylie had never seen it before, but myself, Kevin and Anna had. Again : God, I frelling love that movie lol We all rejoiced, and much fun was to be had ... after we had a little cry over the end. It's so artistically heartbreaking. God Bless you, Baz.
AND THEN! We watched Interview with the Vampire. ... Louis is so pretty. I really didn't like him in that book (though I'm very fond of him in all the ones after), but I adore him in the movie. Lestat's so good at being bad *points to icon*. They were IwtV virgins, so it was quite the experience. Bwhahaha. Kevin agreed to read the books, which means I have now converted everyone I know to Ricean/Lestatish glory.
So, first off, I found my old blog...
It's so weird to look back and read things from a year ago. I'm in such a different place now than I was then; so much so it's a little scary.
I was so depressed and alone and I completely hated it here. I didn't think I would be able to get through the year. And then the entry where I found out I couldn't go back to California during the summer (before this school year)! I remember I just cried and cried as I wrote it, and I remember praying that night to God to not let this be happening; to not let the coming year turn out like the last.
I was so stupid that year. All the bad came from myself. I was so unwilling to open up, or allow myself to make friends. I thought that if I just stayed unattatched the year would go by faster, I would care less, etc. It was just the opposite.
I really think it was God this year that wouldn't allow me to do it again. Before I knew it I was just out there, and literally in a matter of days I felt like I had known these people my whole life. People don't just bond like that, and I have no one to thank but Him. I can't even imagine living through this past school year like the last one. I would never have made it, being alone all the time. I'm pretty tough, but if there's one thing I need, it's to know that I have someone there, if I need them.
On a lighter note! Had a really fun time today. We went to Anna's house and dyed her hair. It was supposed to come out black, but it turned up brown. Which is fine, because it looks awesome on her. It's not just a regular brown. Sort of auburnish with nice natural highlights.
Too bad it's gonna washout in a week!
We also watched Moulin Rouge. God, I frelling love that movie. Kylie had never seen it before, but myself, Kevin and Anna had. Again : God, I frelling love that movie lol We all rejoiced, and much fun was to be had ... after we had a little cry over the end. It's so artistically heartbreaking. God Bless you, Baz.
AND THEN! We watched Interview with the Vampire. ... Louis is so pretty. I really didn't like him in that book (though I'm very fond of him in all the ones after), but I adore him in the movie. Lestat's so good at being bad *points to icon*. They were IwtV virgins, so it was quite the experience. Bwhahaha. Kevin agreed to read the books, which means I have now converted everyone I know to Ricean/Lestatish glory.