well today was the best valentines day ever, it was one of the best days/nights i have ever had, just soo wonderful, though not b/c it was valentines but just b/c it made me realize how wonderfully thoughtful people are and it really made me cry, but in an incredibly happy way. i had a heavy realization and saw clearly that i am sooo deep in ( Read more... )

even though i feel tired and shitty and sore i LOOOOVE not being in school. i do miss talking to people but mother suffices. actually mother is fab and yesterday was amazing and i got new underwear and candy and a backup prom dress and didnt have to sit through williams talk about things i dont understand. i love old ladies and the way they dress ( Read more... )

PROM IS SO EXCITING!! im thrilled that now blair ault is coming and i am thinking about it alot and am probably building it up into this amazing thing that it may not be, but if it isnt than i will make it that way, i will dance the night away, and will dance crazy with adam. that irish boy is my baby and i will have a ball with him i am sure and ( Read more... )

show is over, i am so happy, i was thrilled backstage and flashing everyone. i had a great crew on this show and jamie is my husband. the thought of going home at 3:30 is unfathomable and something i have not experienced in quite sometime, it makes me pee my pants. as does cameron, that boy is damn funny and when him and nard get together there is ( Read more... )

well i am so frustrated and confused and feel so out of the loop on everything, i really dont know whats going on, i mean i do but at the same time i dont. its odd but the first person i thought of to talk to about my feelings was someone i am not very close with and i wanted to talk to him badly. i am still gonna come talk to you about this and ( Read more... )

i have to do this work and just really dont want to and am using this updating as a way to avoid it. i love talking on the phone to irish boys, even if i feel terrible afterwards. i think these bc pills are turning me into a bad person, and its not an excuse fucka,(fucka, you know who you are). hopefully its just this show, and when this will be ( Read more... )

exhaustion and achiness have set in, but i am still pumped and having a ball. hannah broom is a doll face and keeps me organized and in line, and the other freshman on crew are very likeable and adorable. it does freak me out that some freshman that i dont know, know all about me and my friends and lover, i dont mind it, i just find it surreal. ( Read more... )

well tonight was an experience, i plan on there being more of this,hopefully more sucessful times, i will have to get a book. i guess i could get mr harrison to help me out and practice ( Read more... )

i dont really feel the need to update, not that i ever do, but mr. harrison got down on his hands and knees begging me to update, so here goes. had a highly enjoyable chat with blair ault during tech, i love that girl way too much. she shed new light on certain situations and she is adorable in general, but esp when it comes to boys with penises. ( Read more... )

ugh, constant worries, this day was nice, lots of good talking to some, ugh to others, ugh i worry that these worries will never go away, omg i am now worrying about worrying. ugh, go away now, please, i really am begging for these worries to go away. nard, thank you for hearing me out today and then for just now listening to me RANT about my ( Read more... )