so im sitting here drinking away the week, i just cant believe it happened again i got my hopes up and it fucked me over in the end, i just want to scream. this girl was supposed to work. but she wanted something too. i dont understand, i call she says she'll call back and never does. i was supposed to see her tonight and she cancels last minute. ( Read more... )

I am officially dead ( Read more... )

Its another day, another mistake, if you get my drift. I finally just got my sleep and im happy about that. since wednesday i only slept a total of 7 hours spread out. That does blow.. my show is only a few weeks away and i am far from ready. i hope that everything goes well. Alright.

its 8 in the morning, just got home from a club. still really high. cool night, drank at work, smoked after work, took train to club, smoked after train, took adderal before club, drank in club, dont remember 11:30pm-3:00am, got back to brooklyn, drove home, smoked a joint, typing in livejournal, i bed now. yay

Hey all, just bumped into my friend chaz, haven't seen that kid forever...it was really cool i consider him a good friend ( Read more... )

I had a fun night yesterday. Yesterday I hung out with this girl, had a lot of fun too. took her up and down hylan and to the promanade in brooklyn (the thing that overlooks the skyline. I talked to her about everything, it was really cool. i'd like to do it again. I just finished a poker game at my house, lost my money (that sucks) but it was cool ( Read more... )

Umm its early, real early...or late. Long night. big party. my house. not sober. not one bit. eyes closing. this is a haiku. my name is futomaki. i am a shushi. and a samuri. hi-ya. ka-pow. fried rice. i am so cool. i need to sleep. people left my house dirty. that makes me mad. hi-ya.

It's 2 am. I have school in about 12 hours. i start my sophmore year of college. I'm looking foreward to it. Summer has been a joke, a 24/7 hang out where i did nothing at all. However, the last week or so has changed me a litte. I've finally learned that i shouldn't be uptight over everything. Every mistake I made was because I sat there and ( Read more... )

/ True stories never have happy endings ( Read more... )

I'm doing well, I spent some time with some friends, including my best friends girlfriend. I really get along with her well, maybe thats because i had (and still might have...i never know these days) feelings for her before she was with him. I don't know what to do about it so i think im gonna try just not letting it get to me and to be wholesome ( Read more... )