I want you to do me a favor. Love me for as long as you love me. And then when you dont anymore, lets just stop. Lets not try to rekindle the passion, or stay together and 'try to make it work'. I dont want any forevers, because forever is not real. I just want you and i want me and i want us. I just want to be happy. I just want to make you happy ( Read more... )

I met you by accident but i'm incredibly glad i did.

This is my skin. It keeps out the rain and words I'd rather not hear like "I'm tired" or "I'm fine" or "We need to talk."

This is my skin and it's thick. This is not your skin. Yet you are still under it.

Ok, its breaking my heart alot.

You know what i really want to know? Why if i fuck up i get shut out and left all alone, but if another one of us fucks up you guys still hangout.

Whatever, i'm tired of being the exception in a bad way.
Hopefully things will get different when i get back.

I'm lonely but i cant for the life of me figure out for who.

I'm trying so hard to just put it all behind me and move the fuck on but the dreams that keep me up at night, the people i wont talk to but still miss, this constant tension, it all just drags me back down. Theres no escaping it really, and i fear i will have to live this way forever.

I wish you knew how much silly little things like text messages and nights like this mean to me. I wish we could really hang out.

What i dont think you get is that my entire life has and probably always will be a string of near brushes with romance&sex.

Not love. No, never love. None of this could have possibly been love.

It's just that people are so fickle ( Read more... )