I Remember
Silence surrounded me in my personal hell we once shared. The memories of you and I suffocating me as I looked at nothing in particular. Happiness, love, contentment, tears, pain, hate. It's killing me, these memories and feelings that never go away. It's easier when I'm with everyone, but when I'm alone like this, I can't help but accept my reality.
I don’t know why I still remember,
All our memories that were like a living hell.
I’ll remember our past. You were playing around with me.
These memories refuse to leave me. They haunt me along with your mocking laugh and looks of pity. I have to say that at least these memories have made me stronger in a way. The touches, the words , the looks, I fell for all of it. I have to give you props though, you were able to “take the Almighty Key's harsh heart”.
Thanks to you, everything’s changed for me.
The side of me that used to be able to laugh, doesn’t exist anymore.
Love is a joke to me now; my crushed heart.
Love? That's a joke only fools fall for, and I was one of those fools in the past. Your game has now ended, and you will now become the fool. You thought I was harsh before? Look at me now, I'm a cold hearted loner now. Thank you Jonghyun, for crushing my heart that I so willingly gave to you.
I tried everything to forget you,
I became better before anyone else.
I hoped that you would regret it all when you saw me.
I wonder if anybody noticed how much time I put into learning songs, dances, or even languages. I strive to be better, to get you to look at me again like you use to. It was all in vain though. I could never forget you when your so close, when your smell and presence surrounds me completely. I told myself that I didn't need you, that I could get better. I worked out more and focused on my looks even more in hopes that you would regret leaving me, but again it was futile.
Yeah, all of my music that you ignored,
Will be blasting on the streets of Seoul. (Rock on)
You never gave me a second glance when I sang or performed beside you. How do you feel now that you see me performing alone? I hope your shocked by the skills I possess. I may not be as good as you at the high notes, but I have my own way of performing that you'll never be able to achieve.
Our old habits are holding onto us,
You’re often unconsciously falling into a nightmare-like world.
But still, because I was in love with you,
I won’t ever forget you. Yes, I remember.
Why do you still hug me? Why do you still say sweet words when it comes to me? I'm at fault as well though. I lean into your touch. I smile at your words. I hate you, but because I loved you, I miss you. It causes me misery, but I remember everything we had together..
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply cherish the times we had together.
I dream of the times we spent together in happiness, and I realize that there is still hope in my heart that you'll return to me somehow. Times like these I break down in tears as I remember what we had. How could you do this to us? I'll cherish the happiness that you brought me before. I'll use it to move on and become a better person as a whole.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I remember.
The pain you inflicted is only bearable when I remember the promise to forever be yours. You broke this promise to me, but I won't. I will be better than you and stay by your side no matter what. You crushed my heart and threw it into my face, but it still belongs to you.
I don’t know what you’ve done to me.
Just like that.
Forget it. I won’t deal with love. I came back, yeah.
I can't even look at you anymore without feeling any type of longing. I'm fighting these feelings alone. I'm at my breaking point. You brought her here! You brought her to one of the few places I can stay sane! Get away, I need to get away from here. No! I won't run from this! I'll face you and her with a smile. I'm okay.
Throw it all away. I don’t need it anymore.
Now, I can finally sleep without you around.
There’s a spotlight lit in your empty space.
I laugh at my tears now. Marriage? Fuck it all. Hope is for the weak, dreams are for the hopeful, and I refuse to be either. I don't need you or anybody. I'm finally able to move on. I don't have to sleep with Taemin anymore. I'm fine, and looking for someone to fill the empty space you left.
I don’t believe in the significance of the dream I dreamed.
I’m going crazy in the reality of being thrown away.
I’m hot stuff. People like you want to go out with you,
The scars you get from pleading; I’ll live my life in a corrupt way.
Dreams of us being together, happy with a family mean nothing to me now. They're just my desires that have stayed with me through it all, but when I wake up from the happiness provided by the dreams, I lose my mind even more. You're not mine, you threw me away like the trash I am. No, I'm better than that. I'm worth so much more than you deserved....Right? People want me, right? Your pleads of forgiveness left scars on my heart, causing me to forever hate.
Even long after our farewell,
In the end, all I had left was the promise we made, which doesn’t exist now.
That was often the reason to why I’m where I am now.
The promise of forever will eternally be imprinted on my heart, but that no longer matters after the last farewell we shared. Where am I now? Why am I here? Oh....That's right, a dream that I am chasing. At least this one is attainable. Maybe the distance we now share will help me move on.
I let that day slip through my hands,
Don’t ever look at me again.
I’ll believe that you feel the same way I do.
I won’t ever forget. Yes, I remember.
The memory of you has begun to slip away. What did you look like now? I know that this mask I have come to rely on will crumble if we were to meet again. Don't look at me now. You're not suppose to love me anymore. Your eyes, I can't forget. Yes, I remember.
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply cherish the times we had together.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I remember.
Hope, dreams, they're all coming back to me now. What have you done with just that smile? Why did you look so happy to see me? Why did you have to hug me? This will only hurt me in the long run, but I will treasure the time I have with you. The promise is still a part of my heart, even if you still no longer love me. I'll never forget you or what we had.
Making a promise together,
Forever (I’ll keep it here)
Even if I have to temporarily walk this road alone,
I’ll show you everything I’ve got.
What have I been up to? I've created my own name, my own life. I may have to walk alone now, but I'm not afraid to fight and give it my all. Our promise will temporarily be at the back of my mind, but there is nothing I can do now that we've grown apart.
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply cherish the times we had together.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I remember.
As you touch me in ways that you used to, I close my eyes in temporary bliss. I see our past together, the laughs, the tears, the love. The reality of us being together burns trough my heart and spreads to my veins. As we move together as one, I grab you in a desperate attempt to never let you go again. When we reach our peaks of bliss together, and you pull me into a hug as you fall into a deep sleep, I make a decision. The pain, no matter how many times you tell me you love me, will always be there because you are now a married man. I will keep our promise of forever in my heart, and I will eternally treasure of memories in my heart.
I get up with my decision in mind, refusing to be in any more pain for you. I will find my happiness in this world. I will always see us when I close my eyes, but I will also see myself, making the decision to leave you this time. You have my heart, you always have, but I know you will always leave when the sun comes up. I will not be on the sidelines waiting for you anymore Jonghyun, I will make you wait for me now. Goodbye Jonghyun. I love you and I will always remember.