HEY STEPHEN

I can't believe how long that post was the other day. I'm peeing blood sometimes, I'm so scared there is something really seriously wrong with my insides. I better not have some sort of cancer or something. I've been doing a whole lot of nothing lately. Laying around. Watching TV. Listening to music. Posting lame facebook status'. Reading Breaking ( Read more... )

I really shouldn't read old live journal posts. I'm such a failure.

Just when I thought I was normal and completely happy. Life, once again, bites me in the ass. I will get through it though. Hopefully. Am I really lame for saying I have never felt so lonely before in my life? Probably. But this is my journal so I guess I can be lame if I want. I have never craved love like this before. The closest thing I have to ( Read more... )

too much shit is happening right now. i dont think anything worse can possibly happen. i wonder what will make us break? at this point me and olivia can take anything coming our way. especially olivia. she is so strong. seriously so strong. rape, death, getting robbed, getting pregnant, jerk off boyfriends, abusive boyfriends, attempted murder, ( Read more... )

its weird how you can be happy for so long and then all of a sudden things turn to shit. im feeling real shitty lately.. i need to perk up. me and olivia got robbed.. it sucked. and we apparently identified the wrong bitch. we suck. it was so scary. i saw my life flash before my eyes. my sissy had her baby.. my family has pretty much been my life ( Read more... )

im a shitty girlfriend. im running away from something amazing. whats wrong with me?

i dont know how to say this without offending mostly everyone on livejournal but i really really hate drugs. and the party scene is absolutely disgusting to me. i can understand once, maybe twice a week going out and getting fucked up, but every single day? i mean i guess i understand its like a disease, and an addiction, actually i don't think ill ( Read more... )

my life is going so well. like theres absolutely nothing wrong at all. why the fuck am i so bored. its like i really dont know how to just be happy. its driving me nuts being so well off. davis is perfect. im trying to find something wrong with him, but i cant. i miss olivia, a lot. i haven't hung out with her in like a week. davis says i love you ( Read more... )

He said I love you... And I said it back! Its really cool that I'm able to have kick ass friends and a kick ass boyfriend. I never understood what true happiness was until 2009 came a long. This year is the best year ever by far.