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[goosfan]

I haven't felt more suicidal than I do right now, in a long time. I am so close to letting go its ridiculous. I cant make my daughter happy anymore. She hates me. I cant blame her. For the past 4 nights she has been pulling this Just cuddle me but I dont want to sleep routine and my arm starts to hurt so I put her in the floor and she screams. Then

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[sexiliciousash]

If grandma always tells you that you aren't doing anything right, who says that she is doing it right? It's your daughter and she needs to back off and let you try. Being a mom is hard. Believe me, even though I have Michael, it's really hard for me too. I've gone through a lot of stuff with Kyra. Michael misses a lot because he works so much. He only sees Kyra for like an hour every day...and the rest of the time, I'm pretty much like a single mom. I know how hard it is to do things without help. At least you have grandma there to help you. You should be thankful for that, and unless it is something that you actually are doing wrong, don't listen to her when she tries to give you shit. You need to suck it up and get your stuff together. If you're contemplating suicide when you have a daughter who loves you, that's not right. Just because Autumn is having a hard time right now, that doesn't mean she doesn't love you. Maybe she is teething. But I know it's not because she doesn't want you. You just need to calm down and

[sexiliciousash]

By the way, I love you. And I don't want you to hurt yourself.