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[goosiegal]

i like a boy who i shouldn't.
i have friends who i dont even know like me.
i'm part of a family that i'm convinced doesn't like me as much as i like them.
i have homework that i could do now so i don't die later.
i wish i was prettier, thinner and smarter.

my life is one big mess.

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[anonymous]

i'm being anonymous, because i absolutely HAVE to say this.

you're not, you're not, you're not. i keep having to say "YOU HAVE FRIENDS AND THEY LOVE YOU" and "YOUR FAMILY LOVES YOU" etc.etc. and i don't know how much more i can do it before i give up. stop having doubts about all of these things. stop it. and if you truly feel this way, TALK to your friends. TALK to your family. but by putting it on lj, you are forcing everyone who reads this to counter your arguments (which of course they are happy to do, and of course do honestly) but how much responsibility can you keep putting on those who read this? we're trying to help. but it's like you completely disregard that help.

sorry. i've had to say this for a while. and i'm sorry i did it here. but yeah. everyone loves you. that's all there is to it.

[goosiegal]

i guess in reply to this. the reason why i can do this on lj is because it's the only form of communication that i can freely express myself. talking to people...i dont do that because i don't want to seem petty. because i feel like a lot of my feelings like this seem incredibly petty. like so if people don't automatically come and get me before doing things and i generally have to seek them out, i can't really confront them on that because then i would look stupid. i do it here because here it seems less petty.

i guess in the end i do understand that people care, because if i didn't, i probably would be dead long before this. but there are certain things that bother me that i dont dare tell people without seeming petty and stupid. and here i can do it because in the end, i dont know if this gets back to the people i'm addressing so then i won't seem petty or stupid.

i dont know if i make sense. and i apologize about this. i apologize if you have to read it. but i do understand people care at some level.

[goosiegal]

i was in a shitty mood. i felt like saying it.

(ps. the family isn't you and mommy and daddy and them....i know you guys like me)

[zurichcalling]

hey hey hey. 4 out of those 5 things are true for me (and probably a lot of other people) as well. wanna get drunk/ watch dumb movies this winter?

[goosiegal]

umm YES.

i also want a postcard from you.

and you i guess.