fuck. it's 5:45 am. i've slept for three hours today. and i'm starting to get tired again. but at least i finished my german reading ( Read more... )

after a discussion with a friend of mine, i realized (again) that i live a very tense life. i'm always on my guard. i'm extremely easily scared. i rarely trust people's motives. i rarely trust people in general. it's a bizarre thing. i dont know what exactly brought me to this point ( Read more... )

i feel an intense amount of self hatred right now ( Read more... )

my best friend took a week's vacation to forget her, his girl took a week's worth of valium and slept god i love this song ( Read more... )

happy birthday to me.

i've just realized why i hit people so much. because very few people take me serious when i talk. so i figure if i hit them, they may take me that much more serious. this really only pertains to gardner, tonde and arata. but yah.

i didnt make the vagina monologues but i figured that would happen. i was still slightly disappointed. but at least i tried?

reeney, you inspired me to try out for the vagina monologues!

(which i just did. i highly doubt i'll make it in but i'm glad i did it!)

i feel like i should make an entry just so that people know i'm alive ( Read more... )

Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.
--Unknown