( my xmas stocking )

"I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend"

you kill me, you know that? you absolutely kill me.
go live your new life. i always knew i didnt deserve you anyway.
so goodbye. have fun with your new best

mr.orlofsky:
"well then, emby, your trancendant moment was on butter and egg road"

are you freaking kidding me? that was it? thats all? whatever. i deserve more.

i am miss havisham. charles dickens. great expectations. look it up ( Read more... )

so, someone i knew commited suicide. thats right. last weekend. and he was very close with some of my dearest friends. his funeral was today. i couldnt go. couldnt bear it ( Read more... )

ok, so lets do this thing up right. no depression, no poetry, no lyrics, fill out all the blanks. nothing to hide behind, just whats up ( Read more... )

would someone else like to do the honors? my hands are tired of preforming the act. they rebel against me. my mind screams that i'm behaving like a lunatic. my heart cries out in pain that could never be expressed physically. my logic points out that there is nothing wrong with me. and as a whole i sink deeper and deeper into the abyss of ( Read more... )

just when i thought things couldnt get worse, and i acted on it.... they got so much better. and now i feel like a shmuck. a bona-fide, crazy-ass, retard shmuck. and i cant undo it. boo. i had done so well too.

oh well. things are looking up at least, thanks to bible study and two or three wonderful people.

"i'm in a car underwater with time to kill. thinking back, i forgot to tell you this: i didnt care that you left and abandoned me. what hurts more, is i would still die for you. leave it up to me, to burden you again. this was not your fault, so forget me ( Read more... )

ok seriously. i fell off the planet.

cheer up, emo kid.