Imagination

[gothicblade]

Well, here I am, sitting in the kitchen. Fun stuff.

Just thinking really. Theres not a hell of a lot else to do.

But, on a more serious, personal note... my social anxiety is coming back full force. I dont particularly relish the idea of going to DG anymore. Its fun, I like playing pool.... and I do like seeing my friends.... but the sheer human

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[missvanity7sins]

sorry to see you're not feeling so well. i myself have been going through a strange string of emotions. i thought i was getting depressed, but i was just driving myself mad with questioning my own sanity. i think i was just getting too lonely and trying to compensate with entertaining myself by indulging in self diagnosis. i've been very interested in crazy people lately

[gothicblade]

I have dial-up, at home...

But yeah, that sounds a bitt like social anxiety... I dunno. I just get sort of panicky and dont want to be around people.

[missvanity7sins]

panicky in a violent way? what do you mean by "panicky"? and do you not like being around people you don't know? or certian personalities?

[cyberpunkgrrl]

As much as it might piss you off, keep socialising... coming from someone who hasn't for about 2 weeks (not helped by the stupid weather we're getting over here - nearly 40 degrees my ass *gets all English about the weather* :D )
But seriously, I'm starting to get to the point where I can't handle being around *people*... which sucks cos I like seeing my friends... normally... heh.
Sometimes it's far too tempting to stay in and coccoon yourself in your own existence - God knows, I do - but now I'm starting to regret it...

[gothicblade]

Weve been hearing about the weather even over here.... my roommate Alex (also British) has been flipping out over it... kind of amusing to watch. *laugh*

[cyberpunkgrrl]

hehe... don't... god, nearly 40 degrees?? I'm a *goth* dammit! I don't own anything summer-weight! Velvet, corsetry, legwarmers and rubber/PVC are *not* summer wear! *grumble grumble*
today we're all happy cos it's *only* 33 degrees... *laughs*
But don't worry - in about 3/4 months we'll all be back somplaining about how damn cold it is!!

*grin*

[team503]

Not sure what kind of weather you're having, but what's a
"jacket"? Is that like the safety gear I wear when I ride my motorcycle? I hear there's these things called "sweaters" too. Why would you want to sweat? :confused:

Here in Texas, we believe in shorts and tshirts.

Try to force yourself to go out, even when you don't like to. I find that often, my depression feeds itself.

[dubheitte]

Sarah and I have noticed a similar change in ourselves....it used to be that we could act okay around people, much as we disliked it....but we've lately been noticing a withdrawal where people are concerned....we just absolutely can't stand to be around them anymore, and it seems only our family is safe from this increasing intolerance. We're completely baffled as to the source of this disatisfaction, and don't know what to do about it. I hope you get over your isolationism. As I hope we get over ours. Wish you could come visit.:) Good luck with things. *hugs

[fraumengele]

I really feel for you having these social fears! What exactly happens to you when they kick inn?

I`m a different case - I don`t leave the house because I know only a chain of disapointments awaits me out there :(

I feel very bad these days because it seems I just can`t keep friendships going...I just get tired & annoyed of people so easily...and then I wonder why I`m alone...

*sigh* I wish my reality WAS "a pale imitator of those dreams I'm always chasing" - mine dreams & reality are SO far away from each other :(((

L.A. is still a topic...but I did 2 incredible stupid things that sabotage the realisation:

1. quit my job (suddenly couldn`t leave the house anymore..)
2. spent 500 Euro for clothes & shoes on Saturday :(