Nothing much has changed since my last entry. I'm about 103 lbs now, quite abit lighter, considering last night I was 107 (must've been water weight). Other than that ( Read more... )

Well, I'm 106 lbs. It's okay. I'm just going to have to cut back on a lot of things. I can't believe I gained 5 lbs over the holidays. Phew, I let myself go. Starting tomorrow, I'm going on a strict diet. I don't eat anything until dinner, except liquids, then at dinner, I eat small portions of each food group. I'm hoping to get to 95, but we'll ( Read more... )

Okay, so I have these cat-eye contacts. They're so beautiful, except for one thing, THEY SPIN. Is there any way I can get them to stop?????

Yeah, I was supposed to get my tattoo last night, and Aaron wasn't there. He was only going to charge me 80-100$, and some other guy was there and said he would do it for 140$. Ahaha, so I'm waiting.

( New pictures )

To become what is desireable by the opposite sex; longing to be lusted and beautiful. This madness of a false achievement we bring upon ourselves, but to some, it is all we know. Sometimes we only have control of certain things in our life, such as: our appearance. If we are beautiful, everything will get alittle better, and eventually, the ( Read more... )

Again I fall into your words. Remebering the pain you left me with. My sensitivety leaves me more vulernable than most, and my lack of self-confidence pushes me further into this pitfall of sorrow. My thoughts and feelings are petty, and idiotic. They contain nothing more than my love for you. I can't bring myself to tell you my fears and ( Read more... )

I got issue 14 of Gothic Beauty today. I figured out why Bad Attitude never called me back. They found newer and prettier models. I'm just going to keep myself focused upon the goals at hand. I will prove them wrong. I am vain, yes, but 'tis all I know ( Read more... )

I have that feeling in my stomach. The one that you cannot tell whether it's nerves or something horrible is going to happen. I'm hoping it's just anxiety ( Read more... )

( Cold And Dead )

A whisper in my ear takes my deepest fear the tomb beckons my name for once the cut is made, a slice of cold steel blade air and ground feel not the same....I'm lost. I can't stop my pessimistic mind... Indulging in forever; the memories and pain. Tears fall down upon me, shrieking inside I can't stop. All I want is to break these chains that bind ( Read more... )