Comments | gothsicle: Time will tell and time is Hell

gothsicle

Time will tell and time is Hell

Aug 07, 2007 01:28

So, best as I can tell, Amanda and myself are no longer speaking. You can ask me why and I won't be able to tell you since I pretty much can no longer believe a word she ever said to me in the first place. I kept telling myself we'd work it out, but I'm not stupid either ( Read more... )

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stampeding_vash August 7 2007, 17:07:31 UTC

Only thing Ill say is you shouldnt let this relationship taint your outlook on life as much. There are tons more interesting people out there, interesting things to so, learn, see, etc.

Stuff will improve, it always manages to find a way too *hugs*

gothsicle August 10 2007, 08:07:59 UTC

I'm not. I'm just getting through it as best I can. It's getting easier as the days go on.

remainroark August 8 2007, 23:45:55 UTC

It's awful to have to carry around that combination of disappointment, loss, anger, and unique love for someone. It's even worse if you let it stick, grow, and become palpable.

I think anger almost always "walks with" or covers up another emotion. It can feel good to dwell on the anger for a while, but ultimately it can't be protective.

You'll get through it all. All you can do is be honest about how you feel and try to be confident that you can survive without ending up bitter and closed up--no matter what happens.

gothsicle August 10 2007, 08:11:00 UTC

You're right. It can't be protective forever, as I know more than most people. It eats you up inside eventually.

I'm just sort of shellshocked. You share a bed with someone, you have all these futures planned together, all these promises made, and suddenly--it's all gone, and your life won't be what you wanted and it won't go back to how it was.

I'm just sort of in shock from what she did to me. The love is quickly fading. The anger will be less important and less intense once it's gone.

TIZZLE! anonymous August 11 2007, 04:18:21 UTC

Dude. Seriously, this post was one of the most heartbreaking things I ever read. I can't help but want to beat the living shit out of anyone who would make my brother feel this way. I don't understand it either. I know you don't share that sentiment toward her, but I can't help it. I can't stand to see my brother in pain. And I know what it's like to be where you are, believe me ( ... )