when people get divorced men go back to living the single life and women take on double the work with the kids. i guess for me its even more cause my ex is a cum stain with no job that doesnt have the ability to even see them, and prior to divorcing he never helped because hes a schizophrenic no hoping faggot. i was tired of carrrying everything ( Read more... )

im writing things to try and unblock my head a bit and get myself writing again. so i just write the first thing that comes into my head and use repitition to help stuff get out

and i'm so sad to say

that i'm no good and you are better

and i'm so sad to say

i'm a victim of your vendetta

and i'm so sad to say

i never stopped you in your tracks

and i'm so ( Read more... )

Post traumatic Stress disorder is annoying thing to live with. No matter what I do or where I go something triggers what happened, who did it, how they did it, how painful it was, all with a reminder that theres really no escape from the ever cyclic system of flashbacks, triggers, hypervigilance, numbness, anger etc. etc. It just seems as though I ( Read more... )

if you were here now
theres so much i would say
but it wouldnt mean a thing
cause ive fucked it anyway

and that sends me into sadness
which sends me into helplessness
which sends me into hopelessness
which sends me on to here
ranting once again

if you were here with me
we'd talk of eyes being the window to the soul
of how you'll mark that on your back
but you' ( Read more... )

my friend speaks of broken toys.
when he speaks of this the toy that comes to mind for me is the monkey with a clashing set of symbols, a colourful red and blue striped circus coat on, and a big grin across his little primate face.
however, i dont feel the broken toy theory fits just right for me.

A toy (before becoming broken) gives joy to all around ( Read more... )