why do [certain] people make such an effect on things?

today would have been a good day.

so its been a few days, and yes, i miss him. and yes, i have doubts about how strong i'll be and if i will just end up giving in and making that "i have to see you" phone call ( Read more... )

the internet's been up and down all day at work today. its working now, for the most part. but aim isnt working. today hasnt been one of the best days. i want out of this "city". away from all the ties and strings. im almost jealous of my sister. she's got someone. they've got something. shes getting out of here. she gets to start over. honestly, ( Read more... )

ive decided i need something consistant in my life. something stable and reliable. maybe its a boy, maybe its a hobby, maybe its a friend; i dont know- maybe it doesnt even matter what it is, as long as it fits the description. sounds good, huh? it would all seem easier if i could just (once again) fill this void with beer, buuuuuuuuuut dad's not ( Read more... )

im exhausted. not from anything physical, just mentally exhausted ( Read more... )

turns out, ive abandoned this thing..

this weekend was quite interesting. too bad im not gonna tell you guys about it. hahaha..those who were there know what im talking about..it was both scary and wonderfull at the same time..maybe i little less scary on my half, seeing as i have less to lose. but it was definately an eye opener, in the sense that maybe we need to break out huge ( Read more... )

let's see how this goes...

"there is no sense in pretending ( Read more... )

im sick and i fucking hate it.
i need to put things in order and figure out where theyre going. really think about how good some of the things in my life are for me...