Index of my writing.
verses
kings of leon [ tag]
given the chance || i know a place || untitled outtake
[hometown-texas au] || pg13 || 7,000 words || for fryttu; jensen returns to his hometown after 4 years at ucla and finds an old familiar face.
and when we kiss [ tag]
part 1 || part 2 || future-fic timestamp: let my voice lead you || timestamp: his breathing is music || au: five ways the football jerk and the chemistry geek never met || soundtrack
[college au] || up to nc17 || 17,500 words || jensen is not amused by the the tall football douche who sits in front of him in organic chem. in fact, he prefers to torture him whenever possible.
big bangs
7/28/10 I Am It [master post]
[This Is It au] || nc17 || 30,500 words || Jensen's just left his entire life behind in Chicago to prove to himself once and for all whether he's born to be a dancer. He really doesn't think so, but fellow dancer Jared has never been more sure of anything else. When Michael Jackson dies suddenly, leaving this whirlwind of a tour at a stand-still, Jensen, Jared, and the rest of the dancers struggle to make sense of the fact that all they just worked so hard for has just exhaled into a fading sunset.
The goal of any artist is to be able to celebrate passion, creativity, inspiration, and the relationships that get us through it all. Jensen's journey tells the story of Michael Jackson's influences, the impact he's had on everything that came after him, and how this elite group of modern hip hop dancers pulls it all together and makes it their own.
7/8/09 Let us in! [master post]
[mental health au] || r || 37,600 words || listen to the podfic, recorded by chemm80 || Jensen's been doing this shit way too long. If it weren't for a vicious burning love for schizophrenics, manic depressives, and the pervasively paranoid, Jensen would have ditched his counseling job a long time ago.
Enter Jared - a headstrong, noble rookie who needs to be shown the ropes, and takes to Jensen like he's just found a new religion. Jensen and the rest of the counselors quickly find out that Jared doesn't deal well with some of the things their boss has been throwing at them, and suddenly Jensen finds himself trying to keep Jared from steamrolling over all the hard work and dedication they've given to their clients.
Trouble is, Jared's just trying to do what's right, and now Jensen's got to face some questions he's been avoiding for far too long.
j2
12/14/10 sore loser
[non-au] || pg13 || 680 words || "And I believe you are under the table," Jensen smirks.
12/07/10 you're a real fucking page-turner
[high school au] || r || 17,300 words || for spn_j2_xmas; jared's days pretty much all run together, one big muddy mess of emotional turmoil and confusion and shitty friends and shittier classes. not to mention that his best friend is equal parts awesome and a complete jerk, his little sister is also kind of a jerk, and he thinks privately that someday his books are going to be the only thing to stand by him in the end. luckily, life has a way of turning things around on him.
09/29/10 a delay
[futurefic non-au] || pg13 || 1,000 words || jared's just gotten used to being alone again; hanging out at dfw on a flight delay, he runs into jensen & that goes right to shit
09/27/10 let's discuss something more productive || i find that the truth usually works
[restaurant au] || pg13 || 3,600 words || jared's angry, but mike & katie can see right through him, & they know what to do to help. in the follow-up, it's jensen's turn to figure out the situation.
09/07/10 just this last
[non-au] || nc17 || 1,500 words || for salt_burn_porn; here's what probably happened a few days before jared's wedding -- probably.
6/21/10 Meet you at the dock || Meet me on the dock
[lake au] || up to nc17 || 7,300 words || for dugindeep; jensen's a 3rd year ivy league student home in small town Vermont for the summer. the lake, his family, his friends -- all the way he left them last year. except jared. jared's new.
6/19/10 I want you to!
[non-au] || pg13 || 1,800 words || for karabou; jensen's feeling shitty and jared's trying/failing/trying to fix it.
6/8/10 I believe I was promised zombies
[apocalypse au] || pg13 || 800 words || for karabou; they've found a safe spot from which watch the apocalypse unfold via satellite on a flat screen. jared intermittently panics; jensen wants more goddamn zombies.
5/25/10 Whatever it is
[college au] || pg13 || 2,800 words || for enablelove; jared is having the worst year of his life; misha throws a party, and knows exactly what to do to help him get over his issues.
2/25/10 We Said We'd Start a Band
[band au] || pg13 || 2,500 words || based on hellogoodbye's "i saw it on your keyboard;" jared & jensen, friends through high school and college, orbit around their mutual fantasy of starting a band together.
2/21/10 What it is, is You
[college au] || pg13 || 1,400 words || for college au commentfic meme; jared's on the football team, jensen's a cheerleader, and they're roommates. here's what happens when this football player's worst nightmare comes true.
1/24/10 i got a girl who's oh-so-good, she's got everything!
[future au] || pg || 600 words || for postsecret commentfic meme; on our way home from etiquette class, my daughter and i had a burping contest. it was the most fun i've ever had.
12/25/09 Through Worlds, Worlds
[au] || pg13 || 3,400 words || for micalaux; jared and jensen are soulmates, and soulmates always find each other, no matter what.
12/18/09 Come pick me up
[non-au pwp] || nc17|| 3,000 words || listen to the podfic, recorded by painted_pain || for dugindeep; jensen challenges jared, and jared accepts. and then fucks him into a counter. basically. not to mince words.
12/9/09 rich-spoiled!Jensen and construction-worker!Jared
[au] || pg13 || 965 words || for au commentfic meme; jensen's on a busy street corner, jared is making noise and being a smartass.
12/6/09 A Good, Old Fashioned Lie
[non-au] || pg13 || 1,400 words || jensen cooks dinner, but it's not just dinner. and jared hates that it's not just dinner.
11/19/09 untitled prompt #2
[non-au] || r || 573 words || for dugindeep; jared's wearing a v-neck; they're at a con; jensen pulls him into a storage room and knows where he wants to put his mouth (and why he can't put it there.)
11/15/09 untitled prompt #1
[highschool au] || pg13 || 588 words || for dugindeep; newb jared gets caught in the locker room by veteran jensen.
11/8/09 I could stay with you
[futurefic au] || pg13 || 3,600 words || of course everything goes wrong on their wedding day. but in the end, they're still married. also, CAKE FIGHT.
8/14/09 The Phone Call
[non-au] || pg13 || 1,200 words || chet the second PA from schenactady, NY gets the boys to hang out for the first time, and jared struggles with finding a new best friend and trying not to feel gay about it.
10/13/08 Well I have no intention of letting you fade
[non-au] || nc17 || 1,000 words || set somewhere around the pilot getting picked up -- basically sloppy drunk hooking up outside a bar.
10/1/08 you are the surf that i am walking towards [master post]
[non-au] || r || 14,600 words || Jared is riddled with anxiety over what he sees as the beginning of the end to Supernatural and everything that goes with it. He has doubts about his engagement, he has a best friend who means the world to him, and he has a finite amount of time in which to decide what to do about both.
7/9/08 --- that he will
[non-au] || pg13 || 2,406 words || listen to the podfic, recorded by countess7 (7pennies) || jared is patient. he nearly cracks, but he is patient.
spn gen
12/15/10 untitled
[pre-series stanford au] || pg || 950 words || sam skinnydipping, alone or with company! Someone's standing there, Sam sees immediately, boots straddling the messy pool of his clothes. He tenses, stroke stalling, because there is literally only one person on the planet it could be.
12/14/10 untitled
[pre-series] || pg || 400 words || Either you decide to stay in the shallow end of the pool or you go out in the ocean. - Christopher Reeve. The white foam of a wave stares him down. He bares his teeth against it and plunges in. Go ahead, he thinks. Try and take me.
11/24/10 into the bucket
[s6] || pg || 750 words || sam & dean done gone fishin.
09/28/10 they are the lanterns and you are the light
[pre-series] || pg || 1,500 words || john's got his two young boys, two motel beds, & one visitor who's got a message for him
09/26/10 landlocked
[post 5x22] || pg || 1,100 words || post-apocalypse, the boys have been sticking close to sioux falls.
09/23/10 this is probably the last time
[post 5x22] || pg13 || 800 words || sam wakes up in a familiar place & gets about as much as he could ask for on his return from hell.
09/17/10 dirt-fighting mother --
mid-series || pg13 || 110 words || tussle
09/14/10 put back
[post 5x22] || pg || 870 words || sam's on a residential street, & he doesn't know how he got there, or where he's been, but he's strangely okay with it.
09/10/10 key
[pre-series] || pg || 200 words || this is what dean does when he's by himself on the side of the highway.
09/02/10 dealin'
[post 5x22] || pg13 || 820 words || most guys have their back pockets worn thin by their wallets; sam's gets worn down by a deck of playing cards.
8/22/10 Your Lucky Stars
[post 5x22] || pg13 || 1,300 words || for paxlux; bobby's got a secret ritual for a hunt so sam and dean sit this one out; they pass time in a west texas desert by wrestling and lamenting over dean's 30th birthday.
5/18/10 In the Foothills, it Almost
[pre-series] || pg13 || 4,000 words || sam and dean attend columbine high at exactly the right moment.
5/16/10 We Don't Need Fanfare
[post 5x22] || pg13 || 1,800 words || sam goes to hell and then gets brought back to find out that dean's been a complete idiot while he's been gone.
5/14/10 I'll take the sky
[post 5x22] || pg || 824 words || dean's pretending that he's not waiting, but he is.
1/23/10 Forever 'neath the Streets
[post s3] || pg13 || 2,600 words || dean's version of hell is the mbta.
10/9/09 My window to yours
[standford au] || pg || 1,400 words || alternate to pilot; what would it have taken for sam to come back on his own?
10/15/08 Where is the light?
[early s4] || pg13 || 1,000 words || castiel meditates upon Fear, the human condition, and the winchester brothers.
6/12/08 all hail, the boy king
[pre-series] || pg13 || 2,600 words || sam recalls a good memory, and didn't realize there were any good memories to have. mostly this is serious big brother worship.
6/2/08 there are no ghosts, anywhere.
[mid-s2] || pg13 || 4,200 words || sam's fate is rising up in his throat like bile, and he feels alone.
5/29/08 REST STOP, 1 MILE
[early s1] || pg13 || 465 words || dean is a road warrior.
4/29/08 The Me That Will Be
[pre-series] || pg13 || 3,000 words || sam is saved by himself, and not in any way that makes sense.
sam/dean
09/30/10 morning this mild
[mid s1] || pg13 || 700 words || sam&dean make it through a night in the woods, completely unprepared.
09/16/10 under harvest moon
[au within series] || nc17 || 4,300 words || listen to the podfic, recorded by painted_pain || fuck-or-die, cursed sex, impregnation kink; supernatural wolf-bite/saliva makes the winchesters go crazy.
09/05/10 break it
[pre-series] || pg13 || 540 words || sam's a big annoying ball of teenage moodiness while they wait for dad to pick them up.
2/22/10 I Followed You
[stanford au] || pg13 || 1,220 words || for college au commentfic meme; a while after sam leaves for stanford, dean makes up his mind to get his own piece of freedom. he ditches hunting as well, to make a life for himself. he tries to hide in colorado, but obviously he gets found.
rps het
4/14/08 Got No Excuse
[non-au] || nc17 || 4,866 words || jensen only hates himself a little for this.
jared/misha
4/27/10 I'm not counting down
[office au] || pg13 || 2,800 words || for office commentfic meme; Jared has a huge crush on his boss Misha. When he finds out Misha is quitting, he decides to go for it.
dean/castiel
5/28/10 Untitled Fictlet
[post 5x04] || pg13 || 1,100 words || for nyoka; castiel falls from grace, shows up at 2014!dean's door naked.
3/3/10 Where I Go
[post 5x10] || pg13 || 2,560 words || listen to the podfic, recorded by countess7 (7pennies) || for dc_fireplace; it's christmas, and the boys hide in the rockies after a defeating confrontation with lucifer; dean thinks the weird thing here is that castiel lets them.
spn fanmixes
5/16/10 Out there somewhere
post 5x22 || download [here]
10/13/08 Five songs that don't remind sam of dean / five songs that don't remind dean of sam
two halves that make a whole -- songs that describe how each winchester sees the other || rating || xxx words || download [here]
6/3/08 I'll Fly Away (oh glory)
dean's character throughout s3 || download [here]
&etc.
09/25/10 our future language
hanson [t/z] || pg13 || 1,700 words || the boys take a moment to breathe after the show.
09/22/10 some sort of manifesto, or personal creed, or other such bullshittery
nonfiction || pg || 2200 words || How RENT and Writing Down the Bones saved my sanity
09/11/10 how to start thinking about not moving on
nonfiction || pg13 || 900 words || every funeral i go to is still hers
09/04/10 matriarch
nonfiction || pg13 || 1700 words || i have a story but i haven't figured it out -- i think the most important part of it died last night
09/06/10 time to do this
original fiction [magical realism] || pg || 560 words || one of endless possible takes on 'sink or swim'
3/10/10 Where is our Aquarus
hair [claude/berger] || pg13 || 1,600 words || berger seeks out claude the night before claude reports to base, and offers the only comfort he can.
5/28/09 the satellites slow for you
bare [peter/jason] || r || 2,200 words || a fix-it ending that diverts at the end of "two households."