I shower nearly every single night, just to warm up ( Read more... )

Once upon a time, a long time ago, I was one of those Christians. Oh, you know exactly what I mean. The one who was not the least bit humble about my morals. I was a virgin, and proud of it. Oh, I would be a virgin until my wedding day. I didn't drink. I went to church every Sunday, I went to youth group, I read the bible, I prayed, I recited ( Read more... )

Some days, I feel much older than my 24 years. A few days ago I told someone that I was pretty sure I was shock proof. That in the last 5 years I've been truly shocked a handful of times, and that even so, maybe half of those were media/entertainment shock value. It's not that I think the things I have been through are so much more dramatic ( Read more... )

Lately, I've been running a little more. I've been running a lot for the last year... and then I stopped for a little while. There's a very obvious difference when I don't run, in my mood and my self confidence. So, tonight, I went running, for the second time today. When I set out tonight, bundled up in my warm cozy clothes and my ipod, I felt ( Read more... )

But someday we'll all be old
and I'll be so damn beautiful

( the pretty illusion )

Tonight I was making cookies. It's fall now... and it's the time of year for pumpkin chocolate chip cookies. I knew it was fall... I've known it for a while now. It's been coming, and then it was here. And with everything that has been going on, I've sort of forgotten that this is one of my favorite places to be ( Read more... )

just a quick update, and mostly for Em, who is the only one who reads this ( Read more... )

When I was driving tonight, my mind was running through all the topics I could write about, and I realized it was March. Something about the changing of the months always serves as a reminder of how long it has been since... since whatever happened happened ( Read more... )

Every so often, I start to think about where I am. I realize whenever I do this, that most of myself is the same as it was the last time I looked, even if I feel galaxies away. I take the inventory just to remind myself that I am who I am, and that I still exist, and that I actually have many components that create me ( Read more... )

I have a big giant writer's block ( Read more... )