Need to find balance
I'm trying to make changes in many aspects of my life to bring about balance. I know, not as easy as it seems, right? I just feel like everything is spinning out of control lately. I can't seem to grasp a hold of just one thing and put it in order. *sigh*
I worked Saturday at the EMT job for 8 hours. I had a newly single male partner who was more than a bit bitter. Now I carry a backpack with me at that job. It has spare contact lenses, my glasses, a comb, tissues, immodium in one pocket, my GPS, charger and my stethescope in another, and on a 12 hour shift day I carry my laptop and some stitching in the main pocket. He was ragging on me for carrying a bag I didn't go into all shift. Fact is I did indeed go into the bag. He just wasn't with me when I did. Then he came out with "It's a female thing. You HAVE to carry a bag." I let it slide. It was a very slow day, and aside from 2 runs and a coverage at a cheerleading competition it felt longer than my normal 12 hours shifts
I got home from work and began working on dishes and other house stuff. Picked up stuff that hadn't been thrown out or put away, etc. I even managed to get different curtains hung up in the dining room yesterday. It's much brighter in the room now. I also folded 3 loads of laundry, cleaned the bathroom and tried to stay on track with cleaning up after us. My house is not where I want or need it to be, but it's getting better. We have a plan for cleaning up the porch and making a sitting area out there for the summer months. brute_farce 's desk never looked so good! He cleaned it up when he got home from having his computer fixed. There were a couple of times where I reminded him gently to put something away, but otherwise he was very very helpful.
When brute_farce got home from having his computer fixed, we logged into WoW. It's an escape for me. Except for when the guild your in makes you uncomfortable. There was a rash of "gay" comments, along with "your mother" types, "rape", and a general hostile feeling. I asked in GC for them to please stop with the gay comments. I made sure I said please. The answer I got was "F*ck you". I lost my ever loving mind. I walked away from the keyboard in the middle of an instance. I went outside and had a smoke. I was shaking, I was so mad. I wasn't happy, hadn't been happy for a while, and made the decision to gquit.
brute_farce and misterbaldy were talking to the GM about it, and the GM basically said that I was just overly sensitive. The GM was told I had good reason for being upset. He didn't care, and basically said I shouldn't be playing WoW with all the comments that fly in Trade chat. For the record, I ignore Trade chat for that reason. When you have to start ignoring your guild chat, there's a problem.
Well, all in all 20 toons left Company of Chaos as a result. misterbaldy started his guild, called The Respectful Eye. We haven't begun recruiting yet, but will soon I am sure. I didn't want everyone to follow me when I gquit. I just knew I couldn't stay anymore. I have to say that while I was playing yesterday I was far more relaxed, far happier, than I had been in a long time.
Tonight is another night of H1N1 shots. At least it's in town.
I worked Saturday at the EMT job for 8 hours. I had a newly single male partner who was more than a bit bitter. Now I carry a backpack with me at that job. It has spare contact lenses, my glasses, a comb, tissues, immodium in one pocket, my GPS, charger and my stethescope in another, and on a 12 hour shift day I carry my laptop and some stitching in the main pocket. He was ragging on me for carrying a bag I didn't go into all shift. Fact is I did indeed go into the bag. He just wasn't with me when I did. Then he came out with "It's a female thing. You HAVE to carry a bag." I let it slide. It was a very slow day, and aside from 2 runs and a coverage at a cheerleading competition it felt longer than my normal 12 hours shifts
I got home from work and began working on dishes and other house stuff. Picked up stuff that hadn't been thrown out or put away, etc. I even managed to get different curtains hung up in the dining room yesterday. It's much brighter in the room now. I also folded 3 loads of laundry, cleaned the bathroom and tried to stay on track with cleaning up after us. My house is not where I want or need it to be, but it's getting better. We have a plan for cleaning up the porch and making a sitting area out there for the summer months. brute_farce 's desk never looked so good! He cleaned it up when he got home from having his computer fixed. There were a couple of times where I reminded him gently to put something away, but otherwise he was very very helpful.
When brute_farce got home from having his computer fixed, we logged into WoW. It's an escape for me. Except for when the guild your in makes you uncomfortable. There was a rash of "gay" comments, along with "your mother" types, "rape", and a general hostile feeling. I asked in GC for them to please stop with the gay comments. I made sure I said please. The answer I got was "F*ck you". I lost my ever loving mind. I walked away from the keyboard in the middle of an instance. I went outside and had a smoke. I was shaking, I was so mad. I wasn't happy, hadn't been happy for a while, and made the decision to gquit.
brute_farce and misterbaldy were talking to the GM about it, and the GM basically said that I was just overly sensitive. The GM was told I had good reason for being upset. He didn't care, and basically said I shouldn't be playing WoW with all the comments that fly in Trade chat. For the record, I ignore Trade chat for that reason. When you have to start ignoring your guild chat, there's a problem.
Well, all in all 20 toons left Company of Chaos as a result. misterbaldy started his guild, called The Respectful Eye. We haven't begun recruiting yet, but will soon I am sure. I didn't want everyone to follow me when I gquit. I just knew I couldn't stay anymore. I have to say that while I was playing yesterday I was far more relaxed, far happier, than I had been in a long time.
Tonight is another night of H1N1 shots. At least it's in town.